It is said that when the darkness surrounds you, you must become your own sunshine.
You believe that. You try to hold on to your sunshine. To shine through the gloom.
But sometimes, the gloom gets too much. The struggle to keep shining gets too much. And you wish you were a moon and there was a sun lighting you up through the darkness. Those are lucky who find that Sun. Others just go on burning, or fade into the gloom.