What if I suddenly disappear one day?
How long will you remember me?
How long will you miss me?
Will it last forever or will it fade away?
Will my memory be buried in a corner?
Or will you relish it and make it special?
Will you keep it close to your heart while hurting?
Or will you just forget it all to ease your pain?
Will you become numb like me while unable to move on?
Or will you keep laughing and enjoying as you do now?
Will you hurt as much as I am hurting now?
Or will you be strong enough to be someone I am proud of?
Will you not get attached anymore as to not hurt ever?
Or will you be able to remain this cheerful then too?
Will you consider me as someone you cherished but had to let go?
Or will you keep on holding even if it hurts as I'm doing now?
Will you become scared of everything?
Or will you keep going forward like now?
What will you do if I just vanish away?— % &-
Have you ever noticed
that I might be sad and crying
from all the pain you inflicted upon me?
Have you ever noticed
that I might be sick or tired
and yet you made me do all the work
be it mine or of others all alone with a stream of tears?
Have you ever noticed
that your so called rules or regulations
might break me apart even more than I was before?
Have you ever noticed
that I did way more than I was supposed to
and yet you turned a blind eye and asked me for more?
How hurt I was?
How much in pain I was?
How much I was trying to suppress my tears
and my panic attacks to surface?
You never did
Coz I was just a stranger
Who'll leave after a few days
But you could be a bit humane, couldn't you?
I guess I expected too much from a stranger like you
I guess it's my mistake to expect
humanity from a human
It would be better if I expected it from an animal
who never forgets the favour you did.-
Run away, run away
From this hellish place
Run away, run away
From this nightmarish night
Where you don't want to wake
And live another day
Run away, run away
Before it's too late
Run away, run away
Before your sanity fades
And your soul and heart break
Run away, run away-
I am sorry
For being me
For crying without a reason
For not smiling through my pain
For hurting every moment in my life
For not being able to hold my emotions
For tearing up in trivial situations
For being afraid of everything
For not telling anyone
For overthinking
I am sorry
For not crying when I lost you
For acting as if I didn't care
For my indifference then
For being numb now
For losing myself
I am sorry
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You'll never find someone as cool as her
Someone who accepts every mistake you ever made, everything you ever did or will do like it's nothing
Someone who'll never put you down
Someone who just wants to see you smile
Someone who truly wishes the best in your life
Someone whose only happiness is your joy
Someone who's hiding all her pain that's too much for her to bear with just a smile
Someone who lost her concept of fun as there's a chance that it may hurt you
Someone who accepted everything thrown at her without a second thought just for you
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I was better before
I shouldn't have started it all
It broke me much more
Brought me closer to my fall
I was trying my best
To move on from that hell
And give myself some rest
But that journey was the real well
Of pain and suffering, a true calamity
And it tore my broken heart apart
A little more and it felt like eternity
From the beginning itself now I want to start
I won't make the same mistake this time
I won't open up no matter what
I will remain a closed book till the end
And hope I won't be hurt ever again-
One day she'll vanish
She'll fade away
She'll cease to exist
In this vast meadow of anguish
Hidden from others in her own brain
Agonizing every moment in excruciating pain
Folks will question, why all of a sudden?
She was a bubbly kid so what exactly happened?
Unbeknownst to them was her years of agony
Hurting every second felt to her like a destiny
Which she couldn't take anymore
Disappearing felt like the only door
Far away from this torturous reality
She finally departed from fate's brutality-
She's the truest version of a broken soul
Who's trying her best to just hold on
To not break, fall apart or lose control
Holding her broken pieces as whole
Hiding all this pain beneath a smile
She walks her path with others in mind
Living her life for someone else's sake
Hurting all the time whether sleeping or awake
Feeling as if all her happiness someone stole
She's the truest version of a broken soul-
It's fine
Everything will be alright
You just gotta hold on tight
And not let it drown you
Just imagine the sky hue
When the sun sets or rise
When the dew drop falls or dries
When the clouds come by
When the stars shine in night sky
Just imagine that feeling
And remember its healing
Children giggling, rain pouring
Fireflies shining, autumn's landscape so dazzling
Wind blowing, leaves falling
Trees waving, flowers blooming
Filling fields with bright shade
Preserve them and don't let it fade
Just know this pain will pass
It's not gonna last
Don't let it take you away
It's gonna be fine anyway
So just enjoy it while you can
Because it'll be over before you know like how it began-
I'm writing, writing, writing
Every second I'm in pain
I'll let it all escape
Before it breaks me beyond repair
I'll pour it in my demons
Of melancholy and gloom
And let it all fade away
So that I can finally bloom
I'll be a cheery kid for others
And cry in solitude
I'm writing, writing, writing
All the time I'm sad or in blues-