LETTER TO MY MUSE
I adore the beauty of thy smile
The thickness your smile embodies.
The gentle ray it shines upon my eyes as i set my sight on them.
They refresh my definition of breathtaking
What's more beautiful than you exposing those dentals for the world to see how creative the supreme being is
You are beauty signified.
Not only beautiful in sight but amazing in heart and sound of mind.
You complete what it means to be adorable because, everytime I hear your voice or gaze upon you i get lost in the thought of what would be if your heart was mine.
Should I call you my baby?
Because my heart wants your heart even though yours is too scared to come out to the light and receive warmth.
I don't know much about happiness and love but i would want to walk the strides of happiness, friendship and love with you.
For you inspire stuffs in me i never knew existed
And you fill me up with raw secretions of inspiration.
My muse, you are My joy; the concept of happiness untold and unexplained.-
LOST TOUCH OF LOVE
They say, "The hottest love has the coldest ends".
Am I saying I love you because I feel so or because I don't want you to go?
Was love the language we spoke or did we share the same kind of pain?
You said things you didn't mean to the one who meant alot to you.
With you, nothing I did was right because I was your favourite mistake
And I saw us as nothing but a beautiful mistake.
You always said my love was bad so you could let me go despite the fact my love was more
I don't want your heart anymore
And I don't want to mourn either.
What I lost was the touch of your love forgotten and emotions dismissed.
We were just a means to an end.
What am I to do?
Some are addicted to the darkness within them
Some are addicted to the pain of others
I was addicted to the touch of your body on mine
But now am being left high and dry.-
THOUGHTS I RATHER NOT HAVE
Neither of us was innocent.
I burnt the bridge but you struck the match.
Mistakes of our prime still runs fresh like sap dripping from a branch in my head.
What say ye now that we have drifted far apart from the amorous membrane that once covered us?
Should I regret or wish for better?
That I keep asking each time the smoke is puffed from my lips as I stare at your texts.-
DRIFTING THOUGHTS
Here I am, mixing vodka with emotions.
I know it gets pretty deadly, but then what's there to lose?
I've always been cast away by the shore of regrets and here I am counting my sorrows with tears of sadness dropping from my eye.
I know it feels good to win but it hurts more when you lose.
Every finish line with you was the beginning of a new race.
There's a difference between who I was and who I want to be.
Most times I realize I get lost trying to find my way between both.
This journey of self realization has taken a toll on me.
I don't seem to know how to bypass the shackles of my past that weighs me down.
Everything reminds me of you
When will I finally get rid of these ugly memories that once warmed my heart with cheer?
So you finally want love?
The one thing you weren't good at giving
You taught me how to read in between the lines.
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CROWN
I can't seem to shake this off
I can't break these walls
I can't numb the warm feeling you just brought to my heart.
You decided to take all my pain away.
Without question you picked up the broken man in me and gave him a piece of your heart to share.
In your words, echoed sincerity and longing for that your heart never got in return.
Indeed we were alike but you wore your crown with more finesse
You deserve the crown
You deserve to be my Queen.-
FREEDOM
I am free
I see different
I observe different
I feel different
I am aware.
I see the truth in hidden depths.
I feel the cosmic rays of the universe .
In it's beauty lies the greatest gift of understanding thy self.
I am aware of the flaws of humanity and the complexity of it's race.
Dynamic creatures that thrive in the destruction of their kind and anything else.
What more could be that complex?
I ponder on a lot of things but when I think of this I simply sigh with relief.
I am free indeed.-
WHY DO GOOD GUYS END UP WITH THE BAD GIRLS?
You can't see my tears in the rain.
Neither can you hear my heartbeat in the storm of your confusion.
My heart breaks in half everytime thoughts of what could have been drift past me.
With my Angels and demons on my shoulders
All I have left is my pondering thoughts of you.
Not thoughts of how I loved you but thoughts of how you made me waste my time with you.
They say every open door requires closure but this door to my heart has been wrecked by your carelessness and can't be closed anytime soon.
False promises and pretence was your memo.
I lost myself to whiskey and wine and now they whisper to me saying they can't be of help no more.
Why do good guys end up with the bad girls?-
CONTEMPLATIONS
Sometimes, I wish love was the effort you put in.
Sometimes, I wish romance these days wasn't about decieving others the way we decieve ourselves.
Sometimes, I wish the love I had wasn't selfish but then what's wrong about being selfish?
Sometimes the idea of love seems too good to be true because eventually every beautiful thing gets ruined.
Was there ever love or was it an idea we constructed to get close to those we want to get acquainted with?
Was there ever love or do we share pain in common ?
Can this love redeem my past?
They say, "It is not wise to go against the weather so you don't get caught in the rain" but what more do I stand to gain?
I've always been love's prey always seeing the rewards it promised but not the perils it brought me.
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LOVE PYRAMID
They say feelings are like visitors, they come and go but this feeling refused to leave my shallow heart.
I'm so sick of love songs but my heart knows nothing but sweet songs of your unrequited love.
My lips can't stop singing of how bitter I feel deep within.
I wish you could taste the poison from your lips.
We were meant to break.
You only fixed my heart to watch it break.
Not being able to resist you became my curse.
Especially, when you wrapped yourself closely under my skin.
I dived in deep ends for your love
Yet, you whispered "deeper".
To what end, I asked?
How can I fight for what you won't give?
You deserve a crown for every heart you've broken.
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UNAPOLOGETIC FOR LOVING YOU
I'm sorry my heart still thinks about you
I know am not supposed to and you have moved a long way away from me
But, I really had feelings and i can't just dump them like they meant nothing to me.
I can't help it but think about you.
My heart now has to suffer for what it has done
I never expected it to fall deeply for you
You tore my armour in ways that left puzzled lines on my forehead.
I followed what I felt and that's the issue
I was led astray by the way you made me feel
Do you expect me to know the answer to why I can't forget you?
I guess you have the answer to that question hence you are not in my position.
I sacrificed my world to be in yours.
A world that never noticed my existence.
You left me in the dark room of your heart chained and totally ignored.
Now, am a slave to the heartache you brought me while you are safe in the arms of another.
Yet, I can't apologize to myself for loving you.-