Confusion:

Sometimes I do want to take a leap of faith
Because I want to find out with what I am really made
Am I a fairy or Am I a witch ?
Or just a stardust popped out of glitch.
It's hard to tell where I really belong
When the clock is ticking and I have already waited sunshine for long.
So do I wait more or do I start to run ?
I have had my share of adventures and now it's no more fun.
Or should I quit and surrender to the terror
But "no", the World said, "Then you are a failure".
And with this my mind is back to same old fusion
Am I a fairy or Am I a witch ?
Or just a stardust popped out of glitch.

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Dear me,
Hi beautiful soul, I know you are enjoying your wonderful time.
I don't need roses or chocolates to tell that how much you mean to me.
Just wanted to let you know that I am so proud of the woman you are becoming. You are funny, kind, brave, compassionate, loving, creative and life-long learner. And I am falling in love with all of your phases. Thankyou so much for being such a strong and limitless soul.
Pro tip ? Well, do what you are called to do honey and keep going that way. Learn more to be yourself. Trust it and own it because you are one of the kind and so the universe preceives itself through your uniqueness. And last but not least, put God first all the time, he loves you alot.
Happy Valentine's Day.
Yours Forever and always...

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We cannot skip certain chapters of life, no matter how hard it is to read, we just cannot jump into sweet happy endings because what lies in between carries some real lessons.
Sometimes we have to lose all we have hoped for, we have to make some mistakes, take few wrong paths and even face rejections. That's why, admist so many errors, life becomes so much more interesting than anything. Maybe beacuse life is about sitting with oneself in all of our depth and decay, it is about stretching into growth even when its uncomfortable, it is about, slowly but surely, rising every time we fall.

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There are going to be people who cannot handle the love you are capable of giving. There are going to people who may tell you that you are too much or you are too little just because they fumble upon the feelings you radiate.
But let me remind you to lay down your arms and stop fighting.
Stop fighting for the love which is never going to bloom. Stop fighting for someone who takes your emotions as your weakness.
Understand that this does not mean that you failed or that you did not give with everything you had inside of you. This just means that you protected your energy to turn it into something amazing, something natural, something like you.

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Accept, let go and forget.
These are the few mostly used consoling words. But let's agree to the fact that no matter how many times these words are used, implementing it, is not that easy.
And that's why before letting go, let it in, because it is important to feel the pain and understand where are the emotions coming from and why are you feeling the guilt. Because when you forget and let go of the trauma, you also have to let go of that version of you who was easily trapped. So please, reparent your inner child if necessary and don't be afraid to have difficult conversations with yourself. Listen to what your soul is trying to tell you.
I know it will be hard and you wanna give up. But still, I promise, it will be so worth it.

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If you truly care about someone make them your priority. Make them your priority not just when everything is upright but when everything is reversed as well. Make them your prime concern not just when everything is easy but when, especially when everything seems difficult. Tell them how you feel and ask them the same. Ask how was their day, have deeper conversations with them, sit and teach them some new concepts, share new ideas. And please at that time do not worry about being too much or caring too much. Do not be afraid of what you feel and how you feel.
If you truly care about someone show up for them and connect even when they least deserve it because that's when they need it the most.
Open your heart and let the love in. Because beautiful things are vanishing every day so please do not let your heart become one of them.

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Maybe right now it's about losing yourself and not finding the answers. Maybe right now it's about being alone and yearning for better days. Maybe right now your journey isn't all about love and happiness.
Because maybe this time you just need to see the world from different lens and learn that struggles and failures are not always the enemies.
Maybe this year your journey is all about redemption rather than believing in being stuck. Maybe right now you are being shown, that you can take care of yourself, that you can trust the person you are becoming.
Maybe right now it's all about learning to fall in love with your own warmth and facing the world with your own grace.

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You deserve to be with someone who never tries to quite your passion. You deserve to live with someone who makes you feel home. You deserve to love someone who does not hold your past against you. Your deserve to be with someone who stays.
However before looking out there, you deserve to be this person for yourself.
You should make yourself feel home, make yourself your utmost priority. Trust me, when you start knowing yourself, your emotions and feeling you standup for your heart. Your perception of love changes because now for you, love is more of freedom than of possession, it's more of being fulfilled than being void.
Because now you are no longer afraid of being without it. As you will always have yourself sweetheart!

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And on those days when your efforts doesn't seem to make any sense, when all your trials doesn't really seem to work out and when the darkness surrounds to crush you, know that, there is light within you and not at the end of some tunnel.
And that light has always helped to survive the battles you thought you wouldn't, but still, here you are fighting another one. That's why, trust yourself and believe that you have made it through every single time.

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I think something people needs to understand, is that, it's okay to rest for a while.
It's okay if you are not being productive right now.
Being productive doesn't mean you have to hustle all the time.
Being productive doesn't always have to be an external thing.
Have you ever seen a plant hustling and bustling for its growth? No, right?
Remember some growth requires paused energy, some growth requires calming your mind.
Because sometimes growth is all about stillness and patience.

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