Dear Diary

Just finished watching 'wake up sid'...what a movie man! I think if I would describe myself I am a mixture of sid and aisha...I'm saisha..lol!

Well, ofc I wouldn't be writing this entry just to say that. As soon as I was approaching towards the end of the movie, papa called me in the other room. As soon as I went there he hugged me and said, "I accept your decision, do whatever you want". I am still processing it, like what made him say this. But whatever it is...I am happy. Finally, I can freely say "I am writing something". No need to hide.

Sometimes life is just too good to be real or maybe I am wondering too much!

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Dear Diary
When I was young I used to hear this stupid phrase "The more you laugh now, the more you'll cry later" and I never believed in it. Also, in the concept of evil eye. But looking at my condition right now, I think maybe it was correct.

It's been almost a month since I twisted my ankle and got this heavy plaster on my leg. Because of this plaster I ruined my sister's after exams holidays as she couldn't go anywhere & mom n dad are so much worried because of me. I feel like I ruined everything for everyone. At last I'd say that my life was going pretty smooth before this accident, maybe that's why all of this happened. Yk cuz you gotta balance the good and the bad in life.

Ps: Exams are coming and I am fuckin stressed!

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Dear Diary,
It been almost 6 months ...right? It been a journey of ups and downs since this year started. College started in offline mode, I did tonnes of internships, fought and reconciled with people and what not.

Okay...this will sound crazy but I feel life has became a bit monotonous...and I am not doubting my decisions. It's just..it is not like what I expected. Well, I think that's what life is, you don't always get what you expected.

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Dear Diary

The last day of the year. The end. It gives me chills to remember all the stuff I've been through this year. School ended. College started. Plans changed. Gosh!

Today wasn't as good as I expected, I messed up with my presentation in class and heard some bad stuff about me that I don't wanna talk about, cuz it will make me cry again.

Let bygones be bygones, they say ,but the effect of your past decisions do haunt your future. A brand new year is ahead. Full of opportunities and positivity. I hope🤞

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Dear Diary

I am so happy today, and I can say that without a single doubt. Today, was our first project submission in college, and I am proud to say I nailed it!!! I got appreciated by my teachers and batchmates.

After such a long time I felt like I am alive, literally. It's so unbelievable how your life turns topsy-turvy in a day or two. But all I want to say is that no matter how much you feel bad today, like you don't wanna see tomorrow.

Just look in the mirror and say "I'm gonna face this!!" and rise up like a shining soul.

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Dear Diary

I entered in college today. I still can't believe. Well, it will take time for me to digest this fact. I will be studying Journalism. I will be making my career in writing. I will be following my passion.
It feels so great yet somehow I feel a bit sad.

Mumma, papa I know you are not happy right now. I know this is not the career that you thought your daughter will choose. But today I promise you one thing, I am never gonna let you down. I mean it. I think I will be satisfied on the day when I will hear you both say "I am proud of you, Beta".

Now the hustle begins.

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Dear Diary

I think I've almost forgot that I used to write here. Let's just say I couldn't write because I was afraid to record this phase of my life in words.

The main battle is yet to be fought. A lot of questions and threats are lurking upon me. But still I wake up trying to jump over these hurdles . All I want is to forget about the future and empty my mind like a walnut shell. I don't know what will happen in the future. Will I be getting a success of not.

But all I know is that I have some fire inside me which is giving me courage everyday to get up and say what I really want in my life by looking at them eye to eye.

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Dear Diary

Well well well! Finally a ray of positivity's sunlight shined on me. My energy graph went from super low to high above the sky.

Results came out today and to my surprise I did pretty well. All the hard work I did paid of.

The most funny thing about results is my adrenaline rush and palpitations as if I am about to have a heart attack.
The smile on my parents face was the cherry on top. Thank you God for blessing me.

Ps: I will miss school ngl.

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Dear Diary
A lot of things happened in the past weeks that if I just go on covering it I may reach the word limit! Finally, I blurted out everything going on inside my head to my loved ones. And I feel so glad they understood my dilemma.

Even though I spoke about my problems to empty my brain cells completely but still I feel there's a lot more to say (which I actually can't say…I hope you are getting it).
Well, now I am starting to learn much more about what is it being a bit grown-up now!

All the things happening in your life is ultimately gonna be solved by your efforts only. Period.

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Happiest birthday soul sister!

I remember how I met you in school. You were one of the most popular people and I was a newbie. At first I thought you're gonna be so rude just like how we see in the movies. But nope, you were always an angel.

From the after-test frustration walks to your selfies sesh in bathroom. I remember each every damn thing.

Stay happy and awesome as you are.

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