You are not alone because you don't have people or you can't hang out with your company.
You become alone when you don't have any purpose.
Purpose fill all the voids.
Purpose diminishes all the dependency on other human beings.
You don't need people,you need a project .

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कि हम मिल ना पाए।
कि ना हाथ थामा
ना नज़रे मिलाई
ना ही रूठी तुमसे
ना मना ही पाई।
चंद पल मिले जो
और बाते करनी थी
चांद को देख
और आहे भरनी थी।
अब हो जहां
वहां से सुनो
चांद आंखे गीली कर देता है
शाम अब हसीन नहीं
नहीं देखती अब डूबता सूरज
तुम बिन जल में मै
अकेली मीन कहीं।

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And this time
I was not thinking about
a psycho killer
who can stab me
as soon as I open this door.
Neither I was thinking
what if this place will not be mine
If I let it open.
This time I opened the door
And came out of my delusional space
With holding hand of pure love.

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I have no secrets to tell,
now I just don't have tales.
But I want just
one last conversation
To talk more about aliens,karma
and all your observation.
You were in pain,I was hurting too
I know you are saying
"Ishh everything is not about you".
I am gonna remember your aura,
your voice ,your vibe.
In that world too
you will find your tribe.
You completed your puzzle
With the last sad piece
Till the next time my friend
Rest in peace.

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Holding and no talk
Or
Just a long quiet walk.
Sometimes it only needs
A long ,long stare
Or
Just some truth and
No dare.

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I don't know what I am gonna do with you. You are like a toxic childhood friend to me. Gettind rid of you is quite difficult . You are the oldest part and always hanging around me.
Because of you I started hating my self too.

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I can fight with my internal dillema, anxiety with writing. Writting and then reading myself made realise what kund of person I am .

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I used to ride for early tutions.

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becoming financially independent as soon as possible.

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Got vaccinated yesterday.My arm is not too well . Read pharma and went on terrace . Sky was beautiful and once again gave me existential crisis.
Talked about deep stuffs with my siblings under the beautiful dark sky.
It was a random thing but I have a feeling I am always gonna remember this evening.

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