A minute in heaven...
Yes I want a minute there,
Not gone like forever from earth because I still have love to share,
I just want a minute to spare,
To show mum my scars that don't heal,
Show her the pain, for her love I want to feel,

I want a minute in heaven,
Yes, there,
To tell her how much it sucks without her here,
I wanna tell her how bad and good my choices are,
I want to let her see the tears,
I want her to hug me and take away my fears,
Her arms to hold me for a minute,
Her lips on my forehead for a moment,
I just want to hear from her about my torment,
Mum is it worth it?
Should I hold on?
Should I stop and walk away?

I want a minute in heaven,
Yes, there,
A place where my strongest woman lies,
She left when I couldn't fight, now I do, time flies,
She's the best role model I know,
Dear heaven, do I get a minute, yes or no!

#rainyDiary📔

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...
The start of a successful journey always seems hard, impossible and easy to give up.
No one said it will be easy but it's definitely going to work out.
Do your best as God does the rest.
...

#Ibra'sDiary— % &

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...she said,
"i don't know how you feel,
but I want to be your peace"


— % &

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"...
Make those boss moves in peace mode,
Don't ignore your prayer closet,
Stay away from petty distructions,
Do your best every damn time.
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Don't expect attention in people or,
places you don't put your efforts.
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Happy 2022
Dear God,
Dear God am grateful,
2021 was abit scary and uneventful,
But am here alive and kicking matching to a new year,
I may have lost alot but am safe from the toe to my ear,
I wanna say thankyou for watching over my family,
I may have not fulfilled all my resolutions but your Grace has been sufficient,
Dear God, thankyou

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"...
I wanna be her Maui,
Steal fire from below and keep her warm,
Bring sun and change her dark times to light,

I wanna be her beast,
Fight her battles beside her,
Scare the wolves after her,

I wanna be her prince charming,
Travel miles to rescue her,
Keep the dragon of sadness away from her,

I wanna be her Mr. Bean,
Make her laugh without saying a word,
Play a fool on her sad times to paint smiles on her face,

Most importantly I wanna be the guy that makes her happy,
Support her dreams,
Hold her when she stumbles,
Be her pillar when she feels weak,
Walk with her till we grow older,
I wanna be her man!
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At the edge of the bridge

Standing here with two voices in my head,
One tells me to jump and end it all, bold,
The other one keeps whispering about giving life another chance,
It just feels hard going back to the world I lived in-
nothing makes sense,
The still waters below appears so beautiful, I wanna drown in them,
The world is cold and hard, going back is playing a losing game,
It's hard living when u have to survive,
My eyes are watery, I don't know why,
Is it because someone else will cry when I jump, but why,
Or it's because the place I'll end up will be peaceful,
I don't wanna vision people putting flowers on my tombstone making it beautiful,
Will anything change if I give life another chance,
Or things will stay the same no matter what I angle I give a glance?

#suicidal_

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"...
And if my name has to be on your lips,
then let it be in a prayer.
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...the girl of my dreams

Episode 1: Love at first sight

"...
For the past few years my love life can be described as melancholy. Along with such a feeling came pain, stress and depression. I thought moving to a different city will heal my wounds and slowly getting myself to move on. Working from home is satisfying, so going away from the love I cherished wasn't a loss to my income nor employment.
It's been 2 months since I moved here, and the only thing that caught my eye is this lady across my apartment. I shifted my working table to the window facing the street where she walks by every morning and evening. I know I can't give up on love despite the pain it gave me, so my heart and eyes focused on this enthralling lady. Her eyes are alluring, ocean blue with long lashes. She is wasp-waisted, curvy and there is something about her walking style, seductive. Her hair is black and tumbling on her shoulders, her face has this beauty spot which moves sideways everytime she curves a smile. I mean, just wow!
And just like that, I fell in love, she didn't just make me smile but also made me feel like I want to drown in her world.

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