So Long Shall I love Thee!

Withered by her bewildered thoughts,
As tempestuous as the hurricane,
The thirst for thy enticing eyes,
Swaying my mind away, every second!

Thou art so elflock and exquisite
As the paladine of the eyes of heaven,
Twas the glee of eternal Sunshine,
Captivating my soul in a vivid embrace!

Twas the evening saddled with melancholy,
As the death brag thou wander'st shade,
The anectode of her hallowed arms,
Embarking the pious decay of my life!

Thou art my heaven in earth,
As I yearn for the crimson in thy lips,
For love alters not with brief hours and weeks,
Bearing it out but to the edge of doom!

When, in disgrace with misfortune in love and undying desolation,
As I beweep my outcast heart,
And trouble deaf heaven with my endless cries and curse my fate,
Hoping to befriend her oneday at heaven's gate!

For so long as i can breathe, or my eyes can see,
So long lives my love for thee.

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Autumn Tales

It’s all a farce,—these tales they tell
About the breezes sighing,
And moans astir o’er field and dell,
Because the year is dying.
Such principles are most absurd,—
I care not who first taught ’em;
There’s nothing known to beast or bird
To make a solemn autumn.
In solemn times, when grief holds sway
With countenance distressing,
Now purple tints are all around;
The sky is blue and mellow;
And e’en the grasses turn the ground
From modest green to yellow.
The seed burrs all with laughter crack
On featherweed and jimson;
And leaves that should be dressed in black
Are all decked out in crimson.
A butterfly goes winging by;
A singing bird comes after;
And Nature, all from earth to sky,
Is bubbling o’er with laughter.
The ripples wimple on the rills,
Like sparkling little lasses;
The sunlight runs along the hills,
And laughs among the grasses.
And streams of mirth so freely run
The heavens seem to rain it.
Don’t talk to me of solemn days
In autumn’s time of splendor,
Because the sun shows fewer rays,
And these grow slant and slender.
Why, it’s the climax of the year,—
The highest time of living!—
Till naturally its bursting cheer
Just melts into thanksgiving!

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𝐀𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐝
Bygone are those days,
When the little infant craddled in her arms,
And her lap was replica of a shield;
Soft but strong, flanking every negative vibes from reaching out to him.

As he grew up, he yearned to be set free,
To meander across the tall grass, underneath the exquisite crimson skies,
Parading towards the tall buildings
That appeared so tinkering!

She held her tight, like she never longed to let go off him,
The city life was harsh,
But that couldn't stop him from vaunting towards that life!

Days passed, years went by,
As the little infant once, grew up to be a man,
And now, all he is left with, is a heavy heart!
Life was not at all how he had thought of!

Someone made him blue,
For his face is a lacklustre,
And with soaring dull eyes beneath which a fading smile rests,
He gathered up the courage to go visit his mother.

Ashen hair, with wrinkles all over as she stood there,
Still the joy captivated in her pale skin was breathtaking,
As she cuddled up her son,
And he weeped relentlessly,
Jostling his face in her cloth,
Being sorry for abandoning her earlier.

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My Benevolent Grandmother

It's only been a few months but seems like an eternity.
I miss my Grandma already,
For I wish I had been there for her,
The day she bade the world goodbye!

Years have passed since I had the taste of your special fish curry,
Yes, the one that you made with so much
love!
And how, as a child, I coerced you to do the cooking, instead of mommy!

You remember how I used to tell you, I'd keep your right hand off with me after you depart,
Seems so lame now,
That you left us so agile!

For all the times, I used to fight,
Or cuss at you with malignant lines,
Pardon me for I was such an awful child,
As I look back to those days, my heart stifles and makes my eyes get, oh so wet!
How could I possibly tell you, how shattered I get!

Right before the night her soul had made up her mind to depart it's body,
She called onto my mom and told her to get me, for she wanted me to sleep with her, one last time!
She was kinda sick for a month or two,
Mom told her I had my exams to study for,
That I'd come by late night, to sleep with her, just to keep her heart, for I wasn't at home then!
I was long long away from my home!
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Doomed to dust,
I walk relentlessy,
Just a catechism,
"Who'd really understand this heart of mine?"

Impotent to express,
Always ending up being the wrong one,
Just a query,
"Is there no one who'd really understand the emotions engraved in me?"

Failed as a friend, as a lover,
As a son, in disparate forms,
Have always asked myself,
"What am I doing here?"

Endured with pain and suffering,
In every attachments,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster made by my own folks!

The girl I love, whispers into my ears,
"Fuck you! You're a goddamned liar"
Others telling me,
"You're gonna end up being a failure!"

But with everyday passing by,
It hurts my heart a-little-o-little-more,
Until the day the demons take over me,
Demons that you all gave!

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बहुत समझाया है मैने इस दिल को
पर अब ये मेरी सुनता नहीं
हर धड़कन में अब तुम हो बसे
कि ये सपना कोई बुनता नहीं
तुम अब मेरे नही हो सकते ये दिल भी जानता है
पर इस दिल का क्या कसूर ये तो तुझे ही खुदा मानता है
तुम कहते हो जीवन में आगे बढ़ो सब ठीक होगा
लेकिन तुम्हें भी पता है कि तुम्हारी तरह कोई मुझे समझ सकता नहीं
बहुत समझाया है मैने इस दिल को
पर अब ये मेरी सुनता नहीं
भले ही ऊपरवाले ने हमारी जोड़ी ना बनाई हो
लेकिन इस जीवन में कुछ पल ही सही तेरे होने का एहसास हुआ , इससे बड़ी क्या खुदाई हो!
बस दुआ है यही रब से,
जब जिंदगी दे तो तेरे साथ नही तो जिंदगी ना दें
बहुत समझाया है मैने इस दिल को
पर अब ये मेरी सुनता नही
ऐ मेरे हमदम मुझपर एक और एहसान कर
आखिरी ख्वाहिश है दिल की यही समझकर
मेरा दिल तो रौशन है बस तेरे ही होने से
इसलिए इस दिल में तुम कभी अंधेरा करना नही
बहुत समझाया है मैने इस दिल को
पर अब ये मेरी सुनता नहीं!!

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Sitting airily, I try to understand this silent breeze,
The wind that blows and dries all my sins.
I sit with the hope:
Someday it'd bring me the aura of your ubiquity,
Your alluring breadth, your sweet peroration;
The dust that your heels stomp,
The redolent dust out of your clothes that hugs the air!

All of these subsume a part of you,
Your imperishable longing,
That the air carries,
Is what I wish to breadth,
And feel every day!
~v_1A

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Carrying your love

Baby all I've got is this beat-up leather bag
And everything I own don't fill up half
But don't you worry 'bout the way I pack
All I care about is getting back real soon
A good-bye kiss is all I need from you!

On a lonely highway, stuck out in the rain
Darling all I have to do is speak your name
The clouds rollback and the waters part
The sun starts shining in my heart for you
You're right there in everything I do

'Cause I'm carrying your love with me
West Virginia down to Tennessee
I'll be moving with the good Lord's speed
Carrying your love with me
It's my strength, for holding on
Every minute that I have to be gone
I'll have everything I'll ever need
Carrying your love with me!!

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Though I've never told you,
But I'm afraid of the darkness mom,
Though I've never shown it,
I do care for you mom

Whenever I get into troubles,
My eyes always searches for you!
Thinking you will come and hold my hand, mom

And now that I've learned to be strong,
To be independent,
Yet I long for your lap at times,
To lie down and go into a slumber,
Crying all my pain out,
Like a helpless child
just like I used to, once!

Time unravels and transforms us,
As we learn to be professionals,
But at times,
I just wish to become a child again,
And cuddle up in your lap,
As you sing me melodic lullabies like the ol' days

Do you remember how mischievous your son used to be?
And how he used to create a mayhem wherever he went?
And now, all you ever wished from him has been fulfilled,
As he grew up to be the man you always wanted him to be!

But now he wishes to never have grown up;
Though back then,
He used to cry and dislike you,
Whenever you used to thrash him up for his mischiefs

But now all he longs for are your thrashings!
Cause he realises that even your scoldings were a replica of your love.
Mom, wake up & scold me once!
Your son is incomplete without u

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As I stared
From the mists of my graven heart,
Into the patio of your ravishing eyes,
I feel myself drenched :
Into the enigma of your congenial soul ;

Trying to speak up,
I find myself toiling , unable to speak :
So bewilderedly did I try, to lambast all that I felt for you,
As elegantly as I could do.

You started letting my soul :
Find a way into your bewitching heart ;
And I thought it just to be another of my wildest dreams ,
But just that it seemed so irrefutable,
For I was in love, like never before,
With you and your ravished soul.

I led my journey:
Through barricades and storms,
Through mists, in disheartened forms,
Making into your thoughts, my journey stopped ;
For they no longer wanted to be anyone else's
You're the one,
Destiny has chosen,
Or is it just you who has chosen the destiny instead?

My life, I'd say :
Has been almost fulfilled,
Since the day I stared:
And I stared;
And I stared:
Into the patio of your captivating smile!

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