The thudding aches in the centre of my foot



I was convinced that my groans were almost rhythmic.

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To pretend

I do not need to breathe

That the mere thought of your absence does not get my heart jarring

It is to waddle in the abyss of my mind while I drown in the essence of my emotion

Living without you is to live the life I left behind
It is to float through existence.

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I will hesitate to click the button

For I fear
That the shadows of my errors
Will catch up with me

The only way to escape regret

Is to keep going

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Life

Plan your life by the minute
And write a journal to keep you in check
Hmmm... not.

Life can be understood
When you feel the rug being pulled
Right from under your feet
In one swoop
And you have to go back to the drawing board

And then you realize
You do not know where to begin anymore.
Life can only be understood
When you understand loss

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Silence

The deafening silence of my thoughts
Has taught me to be taut in my taunt
To scream the ignorance of my knowledge
And paucity of my wisdom
It has impound in me the hound that the sound of my pound has found.

The commanding stance of my stare
Has brought clarity to the mantle
Upon which a man stood
As he dismantle my invisible castle
Still only a few understood the parlance of my glare.

And here,
My dear,
Is the fear,
Of all near.

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Shall we all agree that your insatiability is your greatest undoing
Shall we differ not on how your noblesse oblige is mostly for show


Will you listen,
As I tell you that the lines between existing and not existing is blurring
As I tell you that I suffer because of you.

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To reminisce on the memories of yester days
Soaking up the moments that resonates
Knowing that they are yours to collate
And accepting that moving on is your fate


To embody your fear
Identifying barriers you must tear
Building anew what to hold dear

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Our path transcends the effervescent cadence of pretence

I can only love someone when I can see them looking back at me when I look alone in the mirror.

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The stumps under my feet prickling me every step of the way
The thorns on the tree stems jarring at my skin as I stumble
The hays that enter my eyes as I open them wide
The lethargy I feel as I experience heat stroke
The going limp of my limbs as I give in to exhaustion
The struggle along the way are exactly what I need
To polish myself and shine my brightest

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On some nights, my eyes shine so bright like they have seen you
On some nights, my eyes search for you and sleep eludes them
On some nights, my eyes drip water like they can feel my fear of losing you
On some nights, my eyes dance to the sound of your heart beat
On some nights, my eyes search for yours and find them
But on this night, my eyes are shut as the love in your eyes are almost blinding.

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