This love waited a decade,
Only to realize it will fade,
To be written and carried,
But never read or understood.

How do I put this into words?
There’s nothing more to say,
Just silence after the last word I wrote on you.

Every piece I’ve written, and still write,
Circles, always circling, trying to find you.
I wish I knew how to let go of you,
But maybe you see a man who is desperate,
I see a man,
Searching for you in every woman he meets.

I don’t seek you anymore,
I know now it’s fine—
If it was never meant to be,
It will never be.

I carry this love with me,
Not as a burden, but as something beautiful,
And I wonder if it will stay until the end,
A quiet companion, with no regret.

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How do I put into words?
Nothing more to say,
There is just space after the last word I wrote on you,
Every piece I have written and I still write,
Circles to finding you,
I wish I knew how to let go of you,
You see a man desperate to find you,
I see a man,
Who searches for you in every woman he meets,
I don’t seek you,
I know, it’s fine,
If it was never meant to be,
It will never be!

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So many years behind,
Yet, I still carry you the same way,
Less expressed, hidden,
The more I sought you,
The more far you moved away,
The more I loved,
The more empty I feel within,
I struggle to leave you where you left ,
This man cannot do much,
But to hide what I feel,
Running behind the things I can buy,
And everything I own,
Questions me,
If they have made me happy,
I can just smile,
Maybe,
All the happiness I sought is just you,
I lack words to make you understand,
Like the thousands of prayers,
Unheard,
As this year ends,
I wish, I can leave you behind,
Exactly where you leave me!

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Such a bliss it is,
To love you from a distance,
And hide all the love I have for you ,
Imagine,
A poet loving you,
All the words he writes means nothing to you ,
Every word he pens- owned by you,
Yet, you just another set of eyes that read his words,
Maybe, just seen and never read !

Such an bliss it is,
To silence love with a smile,
And to still let you fall deeper,
Insane,
Like the drops of rain,
In a desert,
To the sands no plants belong,
Yet, finding the bliss,
In just the thoughts of being loved back,
And the thoughts to be slowly killed,
All with a smile !

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An year over again,
A little more far from peoples’ memories,
But this time,
Learning to miss them,
And learning to live with that emptiness,
Wisdom teaches,
How to carry them,
Without hurting yourself,
How to love them,
Without asking them to stay,
After all,
The love we have for them,
Is for the memories that stay with us,
To be carried over again for another year,
And to the furthest you can carry yourself ,
Until the silence dawns upon you!

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I don’t know,
How to let go of you,
Why do you linger on so much,
When I prayed everyday,
I did not know,
You will linger just as a desire,
It isn’t your fault,
But I still wonder,
What to do,
When the whole universe seems a vacuum,
What can make this man happy?
It indeed is madness,
Too far to fix it,
Only if it flows-
it’s a river, isn’t it?
Is it still life ,
When we just exist?

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Sometimes ,
When everything is crumbling inside you,
You wonder- clueless
The smile you wear,
Is such a beautiful lie !

Some how- carrying everywhere you go,
Letting everyone walkover you ,
You watch- helpless,
The hope you have -
Such a beautiful lie!

You close your eyes,
Trusting the person in front of you,
Lost - in such a madness!
The love you have -
Such a beautiful lie!

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As moon goes in hiding,
I look at this night sky,
And stare at this universe,
How a million stars,
Bring joy from farthest this man can see,
I search for something in the sky,
If I can find something in all the emptiness it has,
To fill all the void I have,
Perhaps, if I can still bring joy with emptiness,
Like the constellations of the twinkling stars,
For all those in insomnia,
And for all those in love,
Who look at sky and
Smile like a madman!

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As moon goes in hiding,
I look at this night sky,
And stare at this universe,
How a million stars,
Bring joy from farthest this man can see,
I search for something in the sky,
If I can find something in all the emptiness it has,
And if it’s emptiness would still bring joy,
Like the constellations of the twinkling stars,
For all those in insomnia,
And for all those in love,
Who look at sky and
Smile like a madman and a poet!

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Slowly slipping away,
A year that still left so much with us,
Coffees, books, music and people!

A hope, that we will stay in touch,
With more love, care and prosperity,
And greet lot more years to come,

A desire, that will take to unseen places,
With more destinations, joy and drinks,
And add lot more to the our memories,

A blessing, that heart seeks to keep forever,
With a love and grace in her eyes,
Just to feel everything in life is a joy!

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