How do I find my worth
with the things that I own
or with the things I do,
less things I own makes
me little unhappy sometimes
but the ownership I have
is tremendous because
I own my ownership for
as long as I want and
that's the worth I find
from life instead of
finding my worth.

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Many moments I am happy
but many days I am not
and it's okay now I know
and I am okay with it too
but having you around
is my peace and my safety
and then when you laugh
when you are happy about things
small and big makes me happy
reminds me of what is happy
unless you're pulling my leg
that makes me angry, and
your cuddles and food
your secret whispers of me
being your favourite and not sister
makes me happiest so I think
mother, you are my happy
I am your poem and
this is my poem happy.

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Fascinated by computers
became friends with logic
nowadays building products.

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Sail through the storm
and come out as a winner
I remembered some lines
but isn't that a once in
a lifetime thing or maybe
twice or thrice, I think so
because on most days
you walk through the water
some days you swim
and some days you ride
the wave and reach the
other side of the day, and
before you know you have
passed the years reaching
the places in life including
the one you stand at now,
when you look back
you know you have sailed
through and became a winner
remembering some storms
and somehow forgetting
so many tides.

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25th poem I recited yesterday, decided
to write 26th at the end of the day and
almost forgot like yesterday so wrote this to save the day.

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I think I have a schedule
I know what I am doing
but do I really? Of course not,
I know now and yes just now,
I thought I was doing what I love
I am safe from the world,
a world of not just other people
but one which includes my head
full of stupid thoughts, making me
forget other things I love
missing things I might love,
I am not saying I don't need
a schedule but I need one
where I have ample free time
to roam on the streets
sit in the grass clearing
my head because
that's the only way
to spend time with myself
creating a relationship that
I thought I never craved
yet I want peace I always said
but never added time for which
in the schedule I think I have.

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Things I can't change
I should accept, I know
I have read it many times
but the truth is a little different
all the time, some of those
things will hold you almost forever
some will always be by your side
and some you will keep holding
until you don't, and whatever it is
you still have to move ahead
and I believe that's the acceptance
must I do and not should I.

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My body had been telling
me something, my mind
understood few things
yet I didn't follow through and
consequences followed me
I kept thinking I will
slow down when I can
and now I am forced to, yet
I am listening half-heartedly
as I am still listening
to my brain habitually,
but slowing somehow
feels good like how sleep
came easily to me after years,
reminding me not being
top of everything is ok
that rest is important than rush,
and to enjoy this pace every day is
simple creating a few lines for
myself and also let others
to see them before I get crushed
under my own weight that nothing
remain to say or listen,
so I conclude here hoping
my brain understands its
own words before my body
start shouting again.

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Sadness holds me tightly, making me feel
it won't go away but as soon as I move slightly
it starts losing its grip lightly.

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Does he want me to win
or does he want me to lose,
he gives me so many things
like he loves me the most,
and then he gives me the pain
like he hates me the most,
yes he is god and does whatever
he wants but I wonder
what I should do, mostly
go with the flow is my policy
but right now it is my fate,
well that's it I will be me
and he will be god, and
winning or losing is not
a question maybe just
living and sometimes surviving
is the answer.

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