El Roi Ifeoma,
The one who sees me,
The one who understands how much
pieces my heart broke into,
The one who sees how much I was trying
to be strong,
Instead of just letting go
Yet he sweetly nudged me to let it all go,
Oh difficult conversations!
Every part aches, the start, the middle, the finish that never finishes,
Maybe it's not necessary after all,
Lord, I don't see how it would all turn out
And that scares me
But I know you see me.
I know you see it all too.
I believe you when you say, your plans are better,
But not knowing still hurts,
I know you see the ache in my heart.
Help me trust you wholly.
I believe father, help my unbelief.
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