Saving my wilted Rose tearing apart,
Still not ready to give up my guard.
Shed my dead, lighten my head,
Still blood left, to colour petals red.
Uproot my feet, run to a better field,
No, I can't be weed, but a Rose indeed.
Got lost when crushed, all bruised and scarred,
It's alright,
I'll love again, for a better heart.
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Here I am now, beneath the ground, walking between the crust and down. Believing in the devils deepest, hiding in smaller spaces,
I m tiny to see naked.
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Leave it to me, thought I could handle.
The heap of misery I made, was left unscrabled. Towards the hell, next was the downfall, I am up in the air looking for a day dawn.
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There's a low key light hidden like me, the rays tempt me, says it can find me.I was fool to search imposters in the world, I found the knifes in my own pockets, i was the cursed. Slit my blood ways, let some worries flow down with them. I feel lost in the world discovering, I was the one finding names. You are none to me, acts these people around, but I was the Ghost between bodies i realised yet I thought I was the one with working heart of big size. Help I cried, help I shout,Why are these eyes and mouth shut down, when I am still around. This feeling I swear is something not quer, i have been like this since forever here.
Vague I write,
Vague I feel,
These words don't make any sense though,
Still I bind myself in these walls of alphabets.
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When you are the only good thing that can make me forget my worries, like my favourite and only drug to euphoria.
I have been overdosed always but now I feel low in stock.
I m in extreme need, come see my withdrawal symptoms.
My addiction to you is as forever to live but it feels life threatening now when I m out of my mind runing on the roads alone.
I m drained as hell and I need a forever rest.
I'll close my eyes in relief and wake in anxiety, my mind is a disbelief.
Trust me I am in emence pain, I m choked in throat, knifed in heart, roped in arms, flooded in eyes and needles all the body parts.
Making it worse in swim with my open wound in salt sea. The ocean made of my tears, coldness of my mind.
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There's a hope that I don't shatter around,
But when I hear your voice in disbelief,
All the little pieces in me shook to the ground.
I need not bother you with me, I must be a happy bee, but what to hide within, when my skin turns pale green.
My bones making space for grin, intruding flesh with it's feet
This pain is all for good it means, making room for feel good bings.
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You say 'I am here, where will I go either?'
But if you are here with me, then where is the ecstasy?
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The last box of my empty mind,
My home,my place,I spend my most time.
With love I don't remember the room,
But moments without, the world feels small out zoom.
I drag me in out, ventilate me to my exaust.
The walls feel shrinking, I breath only the air I lost.
Like it wants to peak it's ear out, hear my heart shout.
I see the world shaped as eyes,
like someone's looking at my disguise.
Wanting to hold the air in quite,
disappearing in crowd,
am I breathing too loud?
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I watch the whole world run,
Intruded desperate to other's defeat.
But I am petrified to the thought,
Will I chase and win over myself ?
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The glass had Envy, you thought of it wine
Don't wanna hide, but masked up feels fine
Mirrors don't appreciate me quite
Laughs had disappointment that no one could find.
They seek for love looking for good faces.
My better heart sank in its smaller places
This insecurities kept my eyes on ground
No love for self is no love around...
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