If they ask of me
Or ever miss me.

Tell them I got drained
I pulled and pulled
But it was stronger than me
I got drained and I felt lighter and free while I walked down the shiny lonely path

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Going through memories of the best times of my life
I couldn't smile or be happy
Probably I'm in that stage of life where nothing interests you..
I'm rejuvenated by sadness and fear.
What is this hollow that can't be filled?

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If my heart stopped, I'd still breath.



'Cause I'm strong willed

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Can y'all just get outta me head?

Me body needs this peace of mind that comes with a tranquil head....

But it seems like it's something I can't attain.....

Cause y'all talking a lot without being precise...

.....and here, I got the shakes and tremors.

Now would you go or should I pop a pill?.

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WEATHERED AND WORN

Out alone I stand....
A woman with her child ready to be born...
Yet, here I am, surrounded with sand and burns......
Looking so Weathered and Worn.
I scream for help.......
Each accompanied with a yelp from pain.....
Tugging my hair like I am insane...
Eyes on the sky whilst saying a prayer....
If a Maker exists, Please make me a mother.

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Take me to the moon









That is the only place I can breathe.

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Absolute desires of a man
Am I dead? Am I alive? I don't know...
Is this heaven or helll? I don't know...
I guess I could get all the answers I want when I fall from this height...

How do we know good pleasures?
How do we know if laughter is a good feeling and adrenaline rush when we pass our hand through fire a bad feeling?
Maybe I should trot on these live coals....
I guess that's the way I can differentiate between the two.

The Shrink said if I think this way for too long maybe I won't last till our next appointment....
.... And maybe that's what I want.

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Just as a way to relax myself after a stressful day...
I took out my best friend (My Phone) and opened my chess.com app...
Hoping to play one or two games and it didn't matter if I would get trashed...
Finally, I got paired after about 1minute of waiting....
Green,White,Green, my flag tagged boldly beside my name...
Made the first move, waiting for my opponent to make his...
I waited some seconds and a chat popped...
Oh, he wants to be friendly. So I thought...
Opening the message it was written all in caps and numerous exclamation marks, "GO TO HELL YOU FUCKING BLACK CUNT. YOUR PEOPLE ARE GYPSIES AND SO ARE YOU!!!!!"
Your guess is right, I felt so down and low.
My only Crime was being Black.

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If we all were to open up....



You'd be surprised by How much evil which lives within pretty bodies.

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All these hurting feelings are weighing me down.........



.........But this glimmer of Love and hope I have...



........says to hold on cause better days are coming.

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