I drifted, in ways I didn't want. Scared of feelings because I wasn't allowed to feel them after her; So I thought... You feel too much, stop. You talk too much, stop. You're too clingy, stop. You aren't talking enough, stop. This world feels like it's dying; In a sense, I can't make sense. This isn't the way I want to go; Here I go now, filling my own fucking cup.
Let us talk; Breathe the words straight to me. The pieces fit; They always have... I'm sick of all this running. My soul, mind, heart, and body; I'll give it all to you... Say what you need to; I give you these open ears. The ears that left; The ears that listen... I'm sick of living in this; This self built prison.
Float, right into my heart; Hold it, feel it beat. Place your hand across my chest; Let your head rest upon me... Breathe with me; We don't even have to speak... Just feel; The whole moment as we travel to sleep. Lace your fingers between mine; Wrap your legs around mine... Let us lay there; As we let our hearts out, bare.
If you want pieces; I have tons. I'll show you a childhood that should have ended my life; Yet didn't. That teacher tried to help; I should have accepted it... Maybe then I wouldn't be this fucked up!!
I put myself through it; All those years of torment. Kill yourself, kill yourself; Y'all have no clue, it was never dormant. This is me; The destroyed person you all wanted me to fucking be right? Doesn't believe in himself; Hates himself, Doesn't deserve a thing; That's me right? Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you... Fuck it's so loud... These screams I yell at myself. Pretend doesn't exist now; This is me right now, Tipsy, barely able to care... Fuck it though right; I ain't worth the time??
That's it; That's the thought. The one that says it all...
I'll give my whole; Every piece of heart, mind, body and soul. I'll bare the wings I once wore; To fly in this void of my own creation. So I may feel something other than pain.