Golden Leaf
As I recline underneath the sky -
I 'tcould feel my instincts,
The peace I once hath had long gone,
The drifting cloud calls me,
And I long myself a thirst for a calm.
The butterfly - flying in the horizon,
Feels nothing as the winds sang a song for them,
And the cicada - humming as their heart could contain,
Feels good to see another day.
Growing up is a deathly disease,
Where I fear of losing myself,
The soothing shower shows no sympathy -
As thier destiny seems realistic.
Oh! But me - fainted mentally,
Drowning in my thoughts,
If Peter Pan was here,
Would I surely follow his lead,
Cause growing up - I died mentally, everyday.
Happily as I could recall upon,
The shiny leaf on a mighty oak,
May fall as it dry.
Even so, my breathe won't last long,
And maybe I just need to sit -
Underneath the sky.-
Summer Love
Oh! Dear, I shed tears - again
Wondering it if I was myself,
I thought I know me better than any other,
Then, why does it hurt so bad,
I guess I lied -
"It's okay" I say but I couldn't sleep,
Songs of charity dance within me,
And the nightingle lorn as the moonlight howl'd.
The sweeping breeze couldn't sweep away my tears,
And the shower wouldn't bother me to hide.
I know I love it when you smile,
And the touched feels so warmth,
In which I wanna hold you forever,
But just not to fall in love alone,
I need to cut the ties of tether.
I cried so hard, but won't enough,
So, I console myself -
It's just a piece of summer love story,
To be vanish'd as the time heals,
And the new road will show me new love,
To smiles again as the Cherry bloom.-
Out of the fog
Raise a toast for I pitied myself,
On a journey I never walked before.
My life was sweet and cheerful,
Until love hit me hard.
Out in the blue, the sun smile with you -
And my mind swindle as I fall deeper,
Into the realm where love is more than an appetite.
The rose on thy face, chubby as it wert,
Pointing to let my heart fall for it.
Howbeit, the moon whisper me the deep pain of losing you,
To see you walk'd the aisle with someone,
And the thought of not seeing you kills me every night.
Loving you was a drug I taint'd,
And addiction was my silent killer.
To the story that I left unfinished,
May you vanish in the mist,
To the secret I Conceal'd,
May you echo beyond the universe,
And to the person I once love,
I torn the chain of hidden love story,
That played in my mind.
Free and wild, letting the rope lose,
Loving you was a pain on my chest,
Letting you go was a living suicide,
But I chose to let you go-
Daisy
Bloom'd as you are -
On the garden full of love,
A stretching hand on all side,
To pluck thy sweetness sense of life.
A broken-hearted I was on a blissful day,
For I 'twas scared to lose thy scent,
And the fear pull me deeper down to hades.
"Oh, my daisy!" I howl'd at night,
When the world is silent -
Where the twinkling star fades,
Cause lovely as you are - I wish to hold.
But my fate whisper to let go,
And alone I feel the pain -
Concealing underneath the sky.
I tried explaining harsh and hard,
And thinking of filling it with another,
For my thoughts believe I would heal,
Calling upon the other -
And fitting them in with unready heart of mine,
I felt betray;
Just because I feel lonely -
Doesn't mean I need to fill it with other's emotion.
So, to the Daisy that bloom on the garden of love,
I wrote a letter with a pen,
To live a life of what you want.-
After the morning I die in bed -
I remember the jokes my friends told me,
And laugh alone like a silly child,
But my tears roll down in my cheek,
For I was once a child with no pain,
Living my life in paradise.
After the morning I die in bed -
I made a new friends,
Sweet as they were as the wild honey,
For their tone melt my icy heart,
And a wramth hug on my chest,
Upon this glistering fake of life.
After the morning I die in bed -
I found love - inside this blank space,
Deep within a void where rays couldn't spoke a words,
A smile they called upon haul'd out,
And I cried cause my heavy heart couldn't stay at peace,
Upon this racing rivals of pain.
After the morning I die in bed -
I never want to wake up,
Cause the pain in my mind kills me,
And it makes me craved my childhood,
Where I was too young to understand this pain,
For now, I die but still living.-
After the Morning I Die in Bed
After the morning I die in bed -
I woke up - Passing the living room,
Rinsing my face and on the mirror I saw -
A half death man - Unwilling to walk another day,
My heart throb causing a wreck,
On my blood running underneath my skin.
After the morning I die in bed -
I went for a stroll'd on a lonely road,
The chirping of birds mourned me,
And the lone pale road turn deathly,
The dog on the sideway wail'd me,
And I could see my grave at the end.
After the morning I die in bed -
I saw my friends waving at me,
And I waved back with a bright smile.
We start the talking like nothing hath happen,
And I laughed out loud with a guts,
But even so I want to undie myself.
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Cherish Moments of Life
Riding on my back - Drunk,
Where the pavement seems to dance along,
And the sweet fragrance that pour out,
With the shower singing a melody song,
Of the fairy tale I used to watch,
Where the wind that the fire-flies enchanted,
To sweep on my face as it always does,
The thunder roar as the moon fade,
And you hold me tide as the lightening strike.
An instant fate that collide -
Of the wish that came true,
And the hope that runs through my veins.
Could we just hold a little longer,
For me to feel safe in your arms,
Cause only in my mind -
We could be together as it will always be,
For those are my joyful moments.-
Love Beyond Words
Sweetest of all; lovers of all lover,
Upon the strings pluck by a stranger,
And the mysteries of the song that howl'd -
With the wind as the bird chirp,
Pleasure as it were to be destined.
And the symphony that lured deep within -
A heart could hold the grasp,
Where the galaxies wriggle on a deep thought,
And I could feel the love drizzling on a coupon,
Of how much I could feel inside my heart,
With the pumping of joy hicupping as I cried.
So, I wish to never quit -
Imagining before I fall asleep,
And the world with a deep breath could hold,
Upon this silly night,
Cause the stranger I saw on the traffic made my night.-
So they light up the Christmas tree -
With a star that shone at the top.
Oh! The herald that an angel sang,
Sweet as they proclaim the joy,
For a vegabond - light as a feather,
A music to my ears with a little smile,
Feeling of delight as it crawl upon the eyes.
Oh! The feast as we dig in -
Long as I can remember,
Deep within this heart could contain,
Shout all my lavish mind down this lonely road,
As I sang the carol songs.
Oh! The joy I used to feel,
Hopping around the Christmas tree,
With a clingy chubby face -
Upon the synonyms of happiness,
Great as they wert.
Oh! I remember, I remember -
The day I enjoy'd with giggling,
For now, they art just a memories,
And with those memories,
Deep down I celebrate a little Christmas,
So I wish myself -
"A Merry little Christmas 🌲 "-
Oh! But now -
Why does it hurt so bad,
I can feel it in my bones,
And my flesh cries with my veins,
My bones and my flesh might be fine,
But my thoughts crumble down into pieces.
There are no wrong; there are no right,
And I ain't gonna say,
"I'll never give up on this soul",
Cause I gave up - nothing more.
I'll just tried to breathe out this solitary night,
And wait for the next sun shinny day,
For even if I die, the next day would surely come,
People would go by while I'm in a grave,
I might feel numb on my head,
And my face might turn pale,
Evenso, when tomorrow arrived,
I'll tried to explain how it hurts,
And see what I can do.-