I am trying ,
Am trying and mostly I fail but ..
I do that again and again !!
But as my fear walks by,
I loose the things I already lost , A.G.A.I.N!!
Am tired of my emotions , tired of the denial ,
But acceptance is what I was never taught ,
Perhaps Am pretty much uneducated when it comes to emotions ,
They just keep flowing .
My will to keep them secretive fail ,
And then I fail in real !
And now failure is a part of me ,
Or maybe I am a part of it.
But if and only if I saw me on the street ,
I would ask if I was ok .
Ask why am ok with the f word being attached to my name ,
Ask if I liked being that f word !!!!
And denial would stop Me ,
It Would STOP ME From exchanging words with myself...
And I'll elope with my failures again!
Coz that's what I've been doing since my existance!!!
Running away ....and now am attached to both ,
Failure and denial.
I still wonder if I am a part of them or they're a part of me,
My question Shall remain Unanswered
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