2022.
It really didn't had a good start.
From 1st January I was having issues in my love life. And my love life ended on 24th January. I lost my love. And I really don't have any friends. My love was everything to me. He was best friend, my partner in crime, my home. I relied on him too much. And losing him is going to be the greatest pain in my life, and I have to live with it. I'm even having financial crises. I'm not even getting any help. My life seems to be at a loss stake. All I'm doing is getting up, going to work, back to home, eat, sleep and repeat. The salary I get, is to pay off my debts. I have got huge debts. And I'm going to be 30 soon. I have got zero savings. This is my life. This is the raw me. I'm in such a mess that I can't get anything in line. Love life fucked up. Work life fucked up. Personal life fucked up too. I can't even commit suicide. I'm so stuck up. I have got no friends for moral support. My family hates me. My boyfriend hates me. I was always afraid of being alone. And I end up being alone.
This is my current situation.
Messed, Alone, Broke & Poor.
I have nothing to lose now.
Ain't even afraid of anything, anymore...-
There is beauty in being alone.
There is peace in being alone.
You don't have to worry about anything.
You don't have to take permissions or to inform anyone.
You don't have wait for anyone.
You can enjoy your own company.
You can be genuinely happy with yourself.
You don't have to please anyone.
You don't have to cry because of others.
No one can insult you in public/private or no one can humiliate you just because they want too.
You can choose whatever you want to be.
You don't have to loose your friends or family or even your career.
Your energy is saved in worthless argument.
You don't have to prove yourself because of their trust issues.
Most importantly you are never gonna get hurt because of some other human being.
There's beauty in being single. You can work on yourself to be the best version of yourself......-
It's really painful when you are not allowed to love the person you love.
And even worse when the person itself doesn't allow you to love them the way you want them to love, the way they deserve to be love.
It's another level of pain that someone can give.-
Sometimes taking a step towards saving your relationship needs a lot of courage.
Because you know, you did wrong, you're guilty, your ego will not allow you to take a step. But keeping all those aside and trying to fix things instead of breaking up needs a hell lots of guts.... cause the other person doesn't care anything about what you did or what you didn't. The other one is waiting for you to come forward and hold your hands... That person is waiting for you to come over.... All you need to do is to take a small step. Your one small step can change the whole situation.
Your one word can change everything. Don't be quite, speak up. That person is waiting for you. If you did something wrong then it's your responsibility to repair those damages, and not to repeat again.
Come on people don't stay numb, go save your relationship.
A small step can make a huge change.
Remember that......
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Many relationships break because of misunderstandings and lack of communication.
And some breaks because of ego and guilt.-
I don't even trust myself, that I can trust some other human being.......
My trust issues have got greater trust issues...….
I'm sorry but it is what it is.....-
Karma:
What is karma? Many people says karma is a bitch, karma is a reflection of your own deeds, and so on....
Karma is something more deeper and wiser than we think it is.
Karma is the future of your history....
What you did in the past, it will happen with you in the future.
Karma is the future of your history.-
Human is the most temporary/replaceable thing in another humans life.
You can be replaced within seconds.
You're not permanent.-
She's calm as water,
He's fierce as fire.
Both are opposite to each other.
With his love he turns her up
With her touch she calms him down.
They fights like they would kill each other.
They makes up as they haven't fought.
They're love is unique.
They're love is strong.
They're inseparable.
He's her light to her every darkness night.
She is his shadow to every unbearable heat.
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I never asked for anything more than a single person who would be constant. I always wanted a person who would believe in me, love me for exactly who I am. Understands me cares about how I feel.
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