Wasn't really meant

I spent years
in the Comfort myriad thinking it to be my safe space
only to find it more succumbing than comforting
of a maze

Was it me trying hard to fit in
Questioning my sanity
Or was it me an object to envy upon
Too different
Someone to pity

Certainly
not that picture perfect
or a crooked smile that may ruin a memory of a picture
to show pretend

For you to look presentable
Not the best company
To befriend

Preachings for the world
And how do you forget when it's obvious around
Pretty humanly to do that you say
From idealism to practicality
To stay silent
And leaving the scars rotting to wounds

After all that
That wasn't really meant
You say so

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Cause we were two broken souls who found solace in each other's company
I felt heard and that was the best feeling ever.

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Untitled
Do I know who you are?
Do I know who you want to be?
Do I call it just an infatuation
Or a fickle affection
What do you want it to be?
I felt the warmth, when your hands rubbed against mine.
And oh! intoxication your contagious smile.
How i find myself occupied by your thoughts,
Building narratives...
Look at me how naive,how incomplete
And you in my mind it feels so replete
Mind you it's just the thought of you
And you are not even here.
I'm ready to push my luck
Provided you don't obstruct
And I am out of fear.
All I am asking is just an evening and you could forget me for life.
Cuz I know better,
And that would suffice.

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Words unspoken

The rain seemed to weave a thousand words
It dropped and dropped and rained and rained
And her eyes saw it all

Unknowingly ,Uncertainly
Those eyes became the mirror
An array of emotions
Drizzled down and coalesced in the expanse blue
Weaving a thousand words.

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THE EMULATING STARS

THE forest asked the scraper,
As his belonging it took.
Did you take the emulating star?
A belonging of mine .
Please LOOK.
The wandering poor bodies sprinkled pixie as they shook.


The girl in the farm near the river,
I remember not so far;
Still lingering for the emulating stars.
Is now retracing her path in despair.
The fireflies glistening are now lost somewhere.

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Quest
Words heal injuries;
Yet everyone is not able to express.
Incurable the wounds become,
Seclusion deepenes.
Eyes look for someone in the oblivious world around
To avert the transition to loneliness,
To tranquilize and soothe the wound,
To break the solitary silence
And let me be me
Accept me for who I am
And what I want to be.
I will not care what the world thinks about;
Will love the flaws I am imperfect without.

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First Flight
I was a fledgling, felt secured in your lap.
Was not so bold; an introvert perhaps.

I lived in your shadows, feared from the hustle of the world
Resisting to go, your hands tightly I held.
And that insecurity forming a trail, Dropped down my eyes.
You wiped it both inside and outside.

Stepping in a new world, far from you.
Yes , I know u were worried too.
Seeing you gazing with confidence in me, made up my mind.
Flapping clumsily, hoping a new world to find,
In the sky blue and the sunshine bright,
Away from you i took my first flight.

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WHEN FLOWERS BLOOM

When pessimism overpower,
In the grimmest of hour ,
A mist of hope ,
Will there lay .
Under the sphere blue,
Bright and gay,
Flowers will bloom one day,
Flowers will bloom one day.

When the hails will devour ,
The heaven will pour ,
A sanguine ray,
Will drive the clouds away,
And in the myriad ,
Flowers will bloom one day,
Flowers will bloom one day.

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