Tere ishq kee jaanib rookh kiye
jo baithe hain, saari kaayenat
mayassar lagne lagi hain humein.

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For you were my last goodbye I was scared to say.— % &

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I've been existing long enough
Just to taste
The bitterness of sorrow
I've spoken loud enough
Just to swallow
The pain of ignorance
What's more to fight
When seems like
I have no right at all
What's more to tell
When there are no ears
Willing to listen
My existence
Has no validation
My presence
Seems to be the plaque of irritation
So slowly
I let the wind invite me
To another land of nothingness
With no goodbye
With no turning back
I'll just disappear
As I should be forgotten,
Forever.

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The scars and the stars
that you hide so well
and the fakeness of your smile
and the lies that you sell
thinking no one
would see what's beneath
hoping no one
would see the filth
that you're drowning into
with no hand to hold
since you gave no clue
choking on the stories
of your rotten past
it's clear by your words
that you're aghast
to look for someone
who'd hear your cry
but it's all in vain
you've already said goodbye.

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Somedays I feel you stronger
Your presence vibrates like pinning echoes
Stirring the senses to the chill within

Some nights you just pass through me
An abstract sighing caught by intuition
Ringing my ears causing my heart to pause

I sense you near circling my fears
Through the divide of realms and worlds

You're a phantom peril
Tip toeing on my shadow
I am anxiety apparent
Submitting to your sway.

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Torn to pieces
the pieces then shatter
turning flesh to dust
and a soul to a writer
Pouring everything on pages
from blood ink
dripping from the edges
Though running out of words
to describe how it feels
but just to give you an idea
it'll keep killing me
even after it kills.

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The more I try to be alright
The smallest of memories creeps in
to remind me not to forget
to stop me from doing this sin,

The more I try to cherish your absence
The harder I'm hit by your shadows
It conquers my thoughts
and dwells me in unending sorrows,

The more I try to clear you off my mind
Such an artist is my brain
It creates your image so fucking perfect
I fall for you again and again.

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So much memories left of you
did you ever care?
do you have any clue
when you cross my mind
what I go through,
I'm sitting blankly
and then there's you
tears starts to roll
out of the blue,
I look to the sky
It's all colored in pink hue
And I wonder if you ever
think of me too
like the way I did
and the way I still do?

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Let me be the hand you hold
when your world starts to fall
I know my hands seems cold
But I promise to give my all,

I'll help you pick your pieces
and sew where you bleed
I know we have differences
but I'll be there when you need,

Life long I will wait
no matter how far you're away
I can't forget that date
when you came and made me sway

So let me be the face you look for
when you're in some place else
Stranger to my feelings by far
I'll suppress them just in case.

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Don't feel pity for me
I am strong
So what at times I
feel vulnerable and breakdown,
Don't try to talk me
out of my problem
just because you think you care
or so you claim,
You think of me as your friend
but just so you know
I'm just a stranger
who for a time you came to know.

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