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The wrong ones will tell u, you're taking up space in their life..
The right ones will say u filled the empty spaces in their life..
Learn the difference!!

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"Tu Mera Nahi"
Idk this song always gives IST vibes..
Takes me back to december,
When I used to walked on those roads..
Some part of which was broken..
I always used to walk there..
And u'd remind me to walk on the paved side in each lap..
It was always so cold..
The wind would pass through my scarf and jacket..
My hands in my pocket..
And I'd walk..
Just walk..
I never got tired..
Sometimes words wouldn't come out of mouth because of cold..
But it didn't matter..
The silence had its own magic..
The street lights..
Making everything appear yellow..
And the nights u wouldn't come,
I'd put headphones in my ears
And blast it with this song..
I felt so at home..
While being 100 kms away from home..
And when u would,
I'd look at u from time to time..
Just walking beside me..
I always wondered what would u be thinking..
Now that i know, i wish i didn't..

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"It was all a dream"
Maybe..
Maybe it was..
If not a lie it was..
For a second let's assume..
It was a dream..
A beautiful enchanting dream..
Then how come it was more real than the reality itself..
I still sleep every night..
Thinking that the dream might start from where it got left off..
But it doesn't..
I open my eyes in this heart wrenching reality..
Which haunts me through my days..
And when night comes,
My eyes crave for the dream again..

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Do u ever just try to go to sleep to avoid thinking and then u wake up more exhausted and depressed?
Like nothing helps..
U want a bit of detachment from the heart wrenching reality..
But u can't..

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October eves
As the clock strikes 7
And the sun gone down..
It's not so cold, not so hot..
Just a pleasant pleasant touch of breeze..
My heart gets filled with sorrow..
A deep deep sadness..
A void indeed.
Like something's missing..
The puzzle isn't complete..
A part of me,
I left somewhere..
Maybe on that bench under that tree..
Or the coffee shop..
Or just that road..
Somewhere my heart dropped..
I wonder does it still lie there..
Would I get it back if I go back looking for it..
I guess not..
It's lost forever..
In the mist of beautiful lies..
And harsh truths..

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It cuts my heart in half to see you go..
To see you disappear in the sky like stars..
And I'll be the wanderer in desert..
Who was following you in the dark..
Lost and alone..
Waiting there to see you again..
So I'll be able to start my journey again..
And while I wait and you take the round of galaxy..
I'll have your smiles and the ecstacy..
And then one day i hope
I'll see the light..
Far in sky, a bright delight..
And all my wait will be worth it..
Because my skies will shine again..

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And even then if u become the mature one and let that be, they'll complain about the fact that it's not the same between u 2 and it's ur fault.
Idk why don't they get that it hurts first to see them behave that way and then cherry on the top, they blame u for the same thing.
Earlier on, i used to worry about them a lot. But lately, i have understood u can't keep being the way it's convenient for other people. Yeah u mi8 lose sm1 u love a lot but then it's wasn't worth it in the first place if they did all that on their convenience and by their rules.

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Just like every other day,
I was sitting and talking to you..
Continuously blabbering..
And you were patiently listening
And smiling..
I stopped,
And you said,
"The way you're continuously eating sugar out of sugar pot while talking..
I find it really cute"
And I laughed..
At that time, I never thought that moment will one day be a reason to bring smile on my face randomly..
Or many others,
Either it was your company or the coffee..
Or just listening to me, continously talking..
Or that night in rain..
When everyone ran for shade and we stayed out there..
Just talking..
Time never seemed enough..
Or when I was talking and someone cut me,
You looked at me and ensured that you were listening..
Or all the other times when there was you and I..
But my thoughts were clouded..
All the way to the end..
I could never see what was right in front of me..
Until one day, the curtain got lifted..
And it was you..
Only you..
Standing there..
You looked like the perfect essence to my story..
The only thing that was missing..
The only one I was looking for..

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"Settling for"

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