DIWALI IN RECENT YEARS..

वो दौर और था कि धूम धाम से मनाते थे त्योहार,
ये पल और है जो घर की चार दिवारी में ही सीमित रह जाता है हर परिवार

वो दुल्हन सी हर दुकान सजी मिलती थी,
अब "end of season" सेल का पलड़ा भारी है
कहा रह गई है फल सी रौनक,
बस समय की ही तो मारी है

वो खुशी से जो घर सजता था,
महीने पहले की जो त्यारी थी
"Urban Clap" से बुला लेते है अब लोग,
हड्डियों में कहा इतनी दमदारी है

वो एक दूसरे से तोफो़ के बहाने मिलना,
अब खर्चा सा हो गया है
अरे अब इसके लिए ही तो वक्त निकालना
एक अलग से चर्चा हो गया है

वो पटाखों का शोर मचाते बच्चें
अब दूर किसी कॉलेज में व्यस्त है,
घर से दूर एक परिवार ढूंढ़
वो भी मस्त है

भीड़ का हिस्सा ना बनना जैसे मानो अब एक आदत सी हो गई है,
ना जाने कितनी चीजों से बचने की हर किसी की नसीहत ही हो गई है
चलों इस दिवाली पर कुछ फल सा ही रंग भर लाए,
बाहर भले ना निकले पर घर पे ही दीपक जलाए..!!

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Imagine you went to some place, and
somebody stole your shoes,
"the branded shoes", heartbroken, you
know you've to go home barefoot, so as
being left with no other option, you start
walking, a little step at each time, slowly
and gradually
But somehow you realise at some steps,
somebody has thrown broken glasses all
the way to your home, and now it's even
more difficult to go home but again, no
other option, injured throughout the
way, you finally reach home.

So this was a little story to let you picture
the pain, one must have felt to their way
back home. Now imagine how you would
react being the one who threw that
broken glasses to the way of that person. "Evil" right..?
Apologies for hurting your sentiments, but that's exactly what people do on the
day of Diwali or a week that is before.
Not actually putting broken glasses in the way but by bursting crackers, making
the life of people suffering from lung
disease even more difficult. Your one
cracker can result in minutes of
breathlessness to them.

So, kindly be gentle!!
This wasn't a holistic opinion or
something, but a genuine heartfelt request, and if this can move a single
person, I believe I succeeded.

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वो दिन और थे कि खुले आसमान में
पतंग उड़ा कर मनाते थे त्योंहार,
आज तो घर की बंद देहलीजो़ में
अक्सर छुट्टी मनाया करते है..!!

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To the best human that Msop gave me
Well I can start with,
"Thankyou for existing "
Just when I remember the very first day I
sat next to you, I didn't know I would
long for you on the 15th day and even
days after

Indeed it's a blessing when someone
predicts your behaviour before you
could reach a conclusion and you did
exactly the same to me,
I've no idea how years would be from now,
But I wish to keep you closest in them

Thank you for being the best version of
you with me and I love that
I love how you've turned out soo strong
with everything you once faced
And I'm already proud of that

So many hugs and love
Looking forward to meeting you soon
Happiest 26th my pretty lady
Iloveyouuuu

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347th MSOP


हम सब मिले एक अंजान की तरह,
ना जाने फिर कब इखट्टे हो गए एक परिवार की तरह

वो सुबह 10 बजे से पहले पहुंचने के लिए समय का तोल,
और हर क्लास के बाद नींद खोलने के लिए चाय का घोल

नाश्ता खत्म होते ही लंच की होती बात,
बस फिर शाम को निकल कर कभी कभी खा लेते थे चाट

कुछ दोस्त रिक्शा तो कुछ पैदल नज़र आते थे,
खैर ये 15 दिन मेरी जिंदगी के बड़े ही सुहाने थे

कुछ में दोस्त तो कुछ में साथी समझ आया
अरे "आज wednesday है यार" और "इसने blue
पहना है ना" का लॉजिक कभी अपने पल्ले नहीं आया..!!

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17.12.2022

From the day I chose to have a career, I
chose not to be a patient from that very
day itself, considering everything as part
of life. It took every ounce of effort to make it a daily habit, be it inhaled
medicine or oral medicine, everything came like wave, but never chose to go...

For more than a month now,
it feels tough to live everyday,
may be like I'm getting punished for some sins,
or some other people's sin or something I don't know exist..
such a whole lot of things happened in
this whole month that I couldn't even
manage time to accumulate myself

staying strong isn't something you learn gradually,
it's something like you've to act,
because there's no other way to..

I'm doing same too
hope it stays
and be fruiful❤️
Because it is still taking my everything to live with it

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शायद दिल टूट जाता है जब कभी कोई अपना जाता है
वो जो दरार की वज़ह से जगह खाली रह जाती है ना
वो बस रह ही जाती है...
शायद उन्हीं के लिए,
जो बस चले जाते है
हर त्योंहार पर तुम बहुत याद आती हो
ना राखी अब पहले सी
ना गर्मी की छुट्टी अब मनाई जाती है
बच्चें अब बड़े हो गए है बुआ
अक्सर इतवार का इंतज़ार करते है
तुमसे जो छूटा
वो अभी तक अधूरा है
दिन बदले, फिर साल
पर याद वहीं है...

8 साल गुज़र गए
पर अब भी वो रात के 3 बजे का फोन
आज भी याद आता है
तो मानो दिल सहम सा जाता है
मानों ज़ेहन के उस कोने में हो
जा से ना तुम जा सकती हो,
ना तुम्हारी याद..!!

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To my Boy❤️

Only person who could genuinely think of
taking me on scooty when I was crying out of
stone pain
is "you"
I accept that in life, we should focus more on
good memories, happy moments
but sadly, it consist of hardships too
and it matters who's been part of it
no matter how much I tell you
"mujhse baat mat kar"
I can't forget the face you had when I just
came out of OT,
that fear you had on your face
till I tell you "I'm fine"
is something that tells a lot about how
much I matter to you
though....it's all very difficult to even
memorize
but I know that few of people I expect to
never turn their back to me,
you tops that list ❤️
more like a mother, you remember
almost everything I love to eat, wear,
see, watch
can't even thankyou enough for
your unconditional love
but yes..!!
thankyou for always having my back❤️

Happiest Birthday to my Boii❤️✨
have a wonderful last "teen" b'day 😚

P.s. everything is good and lovely
between us till you ask for money☺️
(kyuki stipend h bhai abhi🥺)

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so...probably most of you have heard the quote,
"Suffering is very personal"
For many reasons,
I agree to this!!

Well...this year
has been very tough on me
(probably on many of you as well)
sleep deprived from days,
I was taken to OT
and it was already too much to absorb
I was made to sit and 2 injections were
injected in my spinal cord
rest, I don't know for how many minutes
I was just listening to everything
happening around,
shivering,
unaware of what exactly it could be,
probably those were longest minutes I
ever survived silently..
a doctor gently caressed my head
telling, everything is fine
well the moment I heard those words
tears started rolling from my eyes,
one after other
like may be a small
but I won the battle..
another 24hours in ICU with urine tube inside
I was lying lifeless on bed
the next day
I came home
with ofcourse people around
who were worrying the whole time I was in OT
another day happened
and it didn't go like long crowd of people
waiting to see me
to see how I survived another battle of my life
but there were few
who were just happy seeing me sleep after days,
joyful to know how I survived
but not everybody cares,
and similarly not everybody matters

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To the one, we've learnt hardwork from...
for as long as I remember in my school days,
I've always seen you almost leaving for office,
when we couldn't even manage opening our eyes
that early in the morning,
*7.30 AM sharp*
that too at bike
that is what you followed
and entering home at 8.30 PM

well...with you,
it has always been like
we couldn't gather courage to show you
our report cards,
but would always choose to come to you,
to tell you where did we mess up

I can't forget the days at all,
when you used to tell
that how already stronger I am
to defeat the pain,
which canula caused
but would tell "Chachi" then,
how many pricks it took for one perfect canula
well... antibiotics couldn't have been at all
possible without you

now that I see you going to office in 4 Wheeler,
deep inside, it feels like a victory
that hardwork never goes off
it always pay, no matter what..

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