We all play different roles in different people’s lives. Your role might be small or big, but it’s always important. Don’t compare yourself with others because, being different doesn’t mean you’re better than others or others better than you.

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How will I tell you, “You are the cause”?
I heard it and my heart took a pause.
Trusted you with my secrets so dark,
Yet I was given a wound with a mark.

I now will have no friend to tell,
The ways I go through the hell.
Trusting people easily is my fault,
Getting attached to someone is my flaw.

Blaming myself for being kind till the end,
Not knowing when to take the life’s bend.
After all I couldn’t choose myself to love,
So now I at people’s faces do bow.

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She was controlled and forced to give up;
Her dreams were cut off, so she arose;
Attitude she wore and bothered no more.
Despite her struggles, she managed to walk:
On self esteem, which she dared to afford,
With a zeal to keep going even if she falls.

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She was controlled and forced to give up;
Her dreams were cut off, so she arose;
Attitude she wore and bothered no more.
Despite her struggles, she managed to walk:
On the road of self love and self respect,
With a zeal to keep going even if she falls.

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People like to have and use free things. Once they have used it and they no longer need it, they throw it away.
Same with love and respect, care and kindness. The more you give the more it is wasted.
Love and respect yourself. Self care and self respect is much more important than worthless people. Show love to those who deserve it. Have a limit in giving yourself for others. Not everyone deserves you.

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I didn’t replace you with someone else in my life. I know you are irreplaceable. So I now hide my stories in me. But you did replace me with someone. When I learned of this truth I felt shattered. I’m trying to collect my pieces together, but I can’t find them anywhere. Can’t seem to fix myself. It seems like I’m stuck alone in this journey. What more can you do to me? All I did was love you more than myself.

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I know I can’t be yours. But I feel offended when you tell me that you shared your once shared story with me to someone else. I thought that was a secret between us. But the truth is I’m not anymore in your story.

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I wish I could move on from you. I want to erase those memories. The nights we talked, the days we spent, the games and the nonsense chats.
It hurts to hold on and to let go. Life is unfair and unacceptable. It showed me you, to love. But, a different destination to reach.

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Me Things

I don’t want to lose you. Yet I don’t want to show you my one sided love and care.
I want to ignore you. Yet whenever I receive your message I reply immediately.
I want to hate you. Yet I hate myself for loving you more than me.
I wish to fight with you. Yet I’m afraid to lose you forever.
I wish to hurt you. Yet I won’t, because I’ll be more hurt than you.
I want to ask you many things. Yet I know the answer is “I was busy”.
I wish to enjoy with you. Yet I don’t want to go on a journey with you.
I wish to hear your voice. Yet I don’t want to be a disturbance.
I want to give up. Yet I still want to try with everything that I have.
I want to love you more. Yet I don’t want to hurt myself anymore.

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I’m sorry for making you feel like I’m a disturbance and for sending you many messages when you’re busy. I know you’re not.
Once my message were read instantly. Once you replied to my messages as soon as you saw it. Once my messages were read within 30 minutes. Then within an hour.
Now my unread messages feels like I’m being ignored and loved lesser than before. Is this a lesson that nothing lasts forever? Or is this a lessons for me, not to be too kind and not to love?
I will leave you for good. It might hurt me and you, but, it won’t hurt forever. Will you come back? I wish you would. However, I’m afraid I can’t love you then. Will you make me love you again? I wish you would.
Was it my mistake to love you so much and expect the same from you? Or is it your loss to lose a friend who loves and cares for you so much?
I loved you!

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