Phase of sadness

I wasn't ready for the sudden heart wreck I get,
I wasn't ready to burden my mind with unnecessary thoughts,
I wasn't ready to use my smile for repressing my unknown pain,
I wasn't ready to loosen the grip of my emotions.
I wasn't ready to being used to it like this .

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about my grief .
about what i have experienced.
about what I am going through.
To write about something I want although I knew it's not mine .

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While meeting the new adulthood ,
I see many crissed crossed brains.
Wanting them more to understand,
Then again remained numb messing everything.
Left all alone.
Everyday my childhood calls me back, says stay here you will be fine and safe
You don't know the wired minds , you will be lost .
I standup and fabricate my aura for the next,
Might be comforting myself twice with the left behind moments,
Still the new phase makes me learns what am I .

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Nadan sa dill tha abh toh samajhdaar hogya ,
Khud ko na sambhalne wala hai abh dusron ko hai sambhal raha ,
Pehle baat baat me khush rehnewala abh wajah hai kojh raha ,
Bachpan guzar gayi,
Bachpana reh gaya,
Issi bachpane ne hasne ki wajah de gayi .

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Fakeism sticks with everyone, Everybody standing beside you has their own reasons....

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Jab families conservative nhi kehlayegi tab hogi "azaadi" .....
Azaadi choti soch se
Azaadi samaj k taane se.....
Azaadi bolne ki ,
Azaadi apne manmarzi karne ki
Azaadi khwaishon ko hakikat me badalne ki.......

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Dawn arise...
Days passed....
Nights spread....

I being the lonely mind ,
Thiking about my next page ,
Caring about my notebook ,
Holding the pen to write the best out of my deeds,

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Eyes
Could you hold
Dont let the precious droplets fall..

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Life has changed a bit
Occurence of rudeness,
Reduction of sympathy
Loosing the old soft heart,
Lack of feelings
Lack of believe,
Lacking of every single emotion
Where am i heading ?
Where i deserve to be ?
I am happy now and sad at the next moment .
Missing my childhood asininity
I say, i am not the same,
The life has changed.

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