"When Efforts Fall Short"
Sometimes no matter how hard you strive,
Dreams seem distant, hopes take a dive.
You give your all, yet fail to succeed,
As if the stars deny your need.

Is it fate, or a test of your might?
A shadow of luck dims the light.
Perhaps it’s not what you’re meant to gain,
Or lessons hide within the pain.

Keep moving forward, don’t lose your zeal,
Time has a way to mend and heal.
For every closed door, a path is near,
Maybe the universe has plans unclear.

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Realisations came to me in parts.
As if my mind knew,
the things that I had
hidden from myself for decades,
would crush me if
I were to face them at once.
And I didn't have the
courage to look
at even the parts.
I'd peek for a moment
and then hide behind my walls.
I'd open my ears for
a second and then
shut them tight.
I was still afraid.
I was still caged.
My instantaneous reaction
was to deny, to label
my own feelings as irrational
and my thoughts as unkind.
I was afraid of admitting
the truth to myself.
So I sat in the dark with
the truth sitting silently beside me.
It had stopped knocking
at my heart by now and
was quietly sitting with me.
Because it knew, the moment
I'd feel safe to face it...
I'd open the door.

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The little things
The little things in life
can make you happy
during the day
by smiling at someone,
saying good morning,
saying thank you,
or offering them a hug.
That can brighten
someone's mood.
All these little efforts
can make a difference.
These efforts may
lift someone up.
Lighten the mood
just a bit by
offering a compliment.
Sharing a joke
Laughing
makes all the difference.
It’s the little things in life
that make a difference.

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i don't care anymore
but i still think about texting you everyday
i don't care anymore
but i still check on your account.
i don't care anymore
but i still wonder what you're doing. i don't care anymore
but i still wait and hope for that notification to pop up from you.
"i don't care anymore"
is the biggest lie i ever tell myself.

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- Chemical Reaction -

Chemistry between us, A bond we can't ignore. It's found in every molecule, In every atom, and more.
Our connection is electric, Like ions in a solution. Opposites attract, they say, And we're the perfect fusion.
Our attraction is chemical, A reaction we can't control. We're like elements in a compound, Inseparable, a single whole.
Our sparks fly like electrons, In a never-ending dance. We're bound by covalent bonds, A chemistry that's enhanced.
Our chemistry is unique, A chemical equation of love. Our elements combine perfectly, Fitting like a hand in a glove.
Chemistry between us, A force we can't explain. We're like elements in a periodic table, Forever linked.
Forever together, never to be torn apart.

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trying to find some hope

What if there was no hope? What if there was no redemption? What would you do if someone told you that there are no second chances,that there is nothing after? What
choices would you make? I'm struggling to find hope. Everyday I think today is a new day but I seem to find myself on a constant loop and repeat. For everyone who in me has had hope, I've let them down and maybe that would be my judgement and sentence... Maybe I could still be better. I don't know but maybe there is no redemption and perhaps there is no such thing as hope

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What do you feel when you are all alone?

When I'm all alone, I feel a sense of peace,
A calmness that washes over me like a breeze.
I can breathe a little deeper and let go of it all,
The worries and the fears, they simply fall.

In solitude, I find a certain clarity,
A chance to reflect on my life and reality.
Without the noise and distractions of the world,
I can focus on myself, my mind unfurled.

Sometimes loneliness creeps in, it's true,
But then I remind myself that this too shall pass through.
For in my own company, I'm never truly alone,
The person I am, with myself, has grown.

So when I'm all alone, I don't feel fear,
I embrace the stillness, and let it draw me near.
It's in those moments that I truly find,
A peace and contentment that eases my mind.

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Just here alone with my thoughts
Will she ever come back?
Will it ever be the same?
Will we go on another date?
Will I know what’s going on?
How long will it take ?
What about the space she asked for ?
Did I lose her already?
Was it the beginning to the end?
So many questions..
Should I move ?
Should I just wait ?
I have to be patient and it hurting .?
Why does it hurt so much?
I fell hard I don’t understand how?
Are we still together?

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When had I floated so far away from who I am;

Drifted my days into sadness, the clear view of the morning sunlight distorted into my own pain;

Like a switch my mind turned memories into bad dreams, where my tears paved roads of red across my swollen cheeks;

When had I became so lost about who I am;

That who I was yesterday feels like someone I haven't met before;

Where had that happiness gone to, and where I can hold in my arms again;

When had I fell so out of touch from who I am;

That laughter became a mask worn like an armour;

So confidently unconfident I smile at my reflection, hoping that it will buy into the
Facade.

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I hope it's okay if I leave
If I leave that place
That moment
That person
That memory
I hope that memory fades
I hope it fades before I die
It is cruel that memories don't fade
They make you fall deeper within it
Sometimes its okay
But sometimes its not
It's not fair that we be with a person for so long that if they leave it'll be tragic
It'll be sad
But people are not sad nowadays
They're happy
They switch themselves
They switch people
People who want to be with them
But who counts that
No one
So I know it's okay okay to leave
I know it
I'll leave
I know it now
Now, I'm leaving
It's now or never
Here it comes
I left
It was okay
I left
I know it was okay that I left.

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