Forget the everyday battle of mediocrity and escape into the wilderness to remember yourself and your lost soul once again

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With the arrival of Nokia 3315, you became my first ever crush in 2004.

With advent of my life as a medico, I officially began dating you in 2006.

With the new degree in hand we formalised our relationship in 2012.

Documents signed, we lived an ever loving life until 2020 when disaster struck..

You began to go offline without reason, you began to neglect me, you began to break all your promise.

I waited patiently for you to get better.. I waited for you to change.. I kept hoping .. I kept trusting..

No more.. I'm tired.. I'm pissed .. I'm fed up.

It's official.. I'm divorcing you Mr Vodafone and marrying Mr Airtel tommorow. .

Performance and reliability seems to be his forte which unfortunately you lack..

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Someone asked, What's first love??

The most beautiful memories always have a bittersweet tale to tell..

The sweetest of smile always has a teardrop falling out of our eyes..

The tales of the past..
The memories of the last..

...are the best yet the saddest episodes of our life.. better known as the Lost "first love"

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"The truth is rarely pure and never simple"- Oscar Wilde

..... It's interpretations have many routes but the actual meaning often remains deeply hidden to never see the light of the day ever."

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I'm unlike you.. I'm not like you..
I don't fit into the regular hot and happening Myntra collection..

I don't have a highway smooth belly..
I cannot survive on salad..
I cannot run 2 miles a minute..
I cannot pose without a few folds here and there..
The world says..
I'm not the ideal gf/wife material as I'm not slim and beautiful.
Shopping with friends isn't an option for me because Gucci or Max do not come in my shape and size..
Yes I'm plus size, yes I'm larger than normal.. but my blood sugar level and cholesterol is at a better state than most..
I don't deserve your taunts and lectures..
I don't need your pity and heartful words..

I love myself.. I know my strength..
I have a big heart, an awesome brain and a thicker skin.. the world's words mean useless to me

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Leaving the safe cocoon behind wasn't easy..
Yet the challenge couldn't stop me.
As I walk down the unknown path..
I keep discovering something new.

I always knew, talking to strangers is wrong .. but I learnt strangers are the best companion on the road.

I always thought, safety is in group.. but I discovered solitude teaches you to become stronger.

I always heard, abroad is a beauty.. but I saw what a true beauty my country is.

I always felt money is a must to explore the world.. but I realised it's passion and zeal that initiates the journey.

Now that I have seen true freedom.. I wonder if I can go back to the world of normal..

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Dear Love,
Don't confuse me, don't give me conditions.
You are suppose to be a silence presence.. not stand out ..
Because my self respect is more important than you..

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They say Ganga's water can wash away all your sins but can it wash away anger?
I lost mom's pashmina to River Ganga but mom lost her sanity..
I saw the pashmina flying off into the river, and I wondered if it was my turn next..
As she revisited the list of my failures of 33 yrs in a single hr, I realised I'm not the child that recieved her photographic memory.
As her mental temperature kept soaring, I realised she could challenge the earth's magma.
Finally the realisation hit me.. the Pashmina was the trigger that exploded years worth of tolerance..

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Never let it go..
A simple line with multitude of meanings..
Never give up..
A simple reality needing immense zeal..
Never slow down..
A simple motto that needs immense strength..
I thought of it.. I tried it..
But then I realised...

Letting go was needed..
Giving up was the only choice..
The road had come to an end.. slowing down was the only option..
Finally,
I became the new me.. never to follow the word "Never".

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I tried so hard and got so far.. but in the end it doesn't even matter..

- Linkin Park

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