..And the seasons changed again..
..The days started getting shorter again..
..What remains constant..
..Is the fear of early dusks and goodbyes!!
:)

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And as we lied down..looking at the ceiling..
Imagining numerous galaxies covering us whole..
He asked me.. "Do you know what Love is?"
This threw me into a deep thought..
I kept thinking of all the moments that I thought defined Love..
All the steps..all the emotions..that I thought defined Love..
He shook me and my chain of contemplations broke..
I stared at him and gave a deep sigh..
And I said..
"I don't know what Love is..but I surely know what Love isn't.."
I couldn't say anything more!!
I wish I could tell him..
Love can't be defined..
Love has no past..no future!!
Love was in that moment..
When we tried to embrace each other's rotten pieces!
Love was in every slip of time..
That led us to each other!!
It was in all those lonely nights..
Sleepless cries and cravings of someone's gentle touch!!
Love will also be in the fleeting moments..
That drift us away!!
Even if it is not meant for us to stay..
Love will be there..
In the changing seasons..
In the enchanting Autumn..
In the innocence of falling leaves and rustling breeze!!
Love is always there..
Smiling at us..
Even when we are not in Love!

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That's the irony of life..
You shiver through the night..
And the next morning..
You wear the most pretentious smile..
To mask the cynics of darkness!!

:)

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Let's meet in an unknown town..
With unfamiliar names!
Let's spend the dusks and the dawns together..
Until the stars blush away into the pristine sky!
Let's make memories..
Till we retire into a peaceful sleep!
And when we wake up..
Let's be strangers again..
Infused with bitterness!!
Let's fall in hatred..
Shall we?

:)

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And that evening as I was getting back I realised...
Just like the autumn leaves remain fossilized on the love deprived ground,
My dreams too, remain engraved on the pages of my diary!!
I recalled the time, when my mother asked me..
Why do I laugh so less, and when I do,
Why do I laugh so loud!!
It seemed like she could sense the million screams hidden behind my laughter!!
How do I tell her, that mother..
Your daughter has a faint heart!
She cares too soon...and loves too deep!
She is sick of an incurable disease..
Her sleepless nights are wrapped with anxiety, hugged by regrets!!
The days move slower..but the clock ticks faster..
She can feel the weight of every moment crushing her bones!
She is lost somewhere..stuck at the crossroad..
The lights get dimmer and her sight blurry..
On days like this she wishes she could be brave for once..
And cry out loud "Carry me home!"

:)

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How much intoxication is intoxication enough?
Do we really need narcotics to feel differently?
Aren't we all a little intoxicated by someone's presence..
Their eyes, the perfume they wear..
The way they tilt their head while laughing,..
Their look of embarassment, their comfort ice cream on a bad day...
Their dreams, the way they get back on their feet when those dreams shatter..
The way they love, the way they hate..
The way they are so dark..and Oh! Yet so gorgeous!
The stars whose lights get dimmer in front of them..
The full moon that blushes when you call their name!!
And Alas! No such intoxication is intoxication enough..
That can overcome the effect they leave!
:)

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That July night..

It was late summer- mid monsoon time..
The Kolkata showers were in their full bloom..
Alongside the scorching Kolkata heat!!
Life here in this city is an Oxymoron like that..
It is unpleasingly pleasing!!
And at the end of one such dull vibrant day..
I saw her..clad in a white kurta..
Drenched in monsoon gloom!!
She waited there at the crossroad..
Struggling with her umbrella!!
And there our eyes met..
She wore a lost sadness in those deep eyes..
And my lost soul followed her glances..
Her each glance pierced numerous questions into my heart!!
Who was she..what was the mystery she was hiding!!
Was she even real..when she looked so surreal!
She seemed strangely familiar..
A peaceful chaos..
A simple puzzle..
To keep me wandering in her thoughts ..
And pausing, everytime I cross a crossroad!!

:)

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Arch nemesis..
A term that defines our counterpart..
Someone that is so different and yet so similar..
Someone with whom you can never see eye to eye!!
A mystery..an empathetic kind of hatred..
A never ending rivalry!!
My Arch nemesis had always been an extremist..
He would either be black or white..
Would be the best or the worst!!
And I on the contrary was gray..
Mediocre...diplomatic!!
Someone who could blend both his worlds!!Everytime he oscillated from one cosmos to another..
He passed through me!!
And inevitably..we keep colliding with each other..
But never collapse into each other!!
Maybe that's the way to maintain sanity!!
Maintain the invisible harmony..
Which would otherwise vanish into the merciless infinity!!

:)

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Wall..

During one of my breakdowns..one of my friends told me..
"Don't fall down..if you have a wall behind you..
Try to lean on it and stand up tall again!"
I wish I could tell him..
What shall I do when I have the wall in front of me?
Stopping me from moving forward..
And on both my sides as well..
The only place where I don't have a wall is..under my feet..
There's no floor..
There's just a never ending black tunnel..
And I can find myself fall deeper and deeper into it!!
With each passing day..
The tunnel gets darker and more petrifying!!
And there isn't any bright light on the other side of the tunnel..
There's no saviour..
No wall to lean on to!!
In times like this..
It's just me and my failures..
Swallowing me whole..
With no escape!!
:)

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Why is it always "I am what I am..I cannot change"
And never "I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you!"
:)


#Favourite_song_7

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