And for each time I meet you
I later realized,
For all these years you have been
What a light house is
To a ship.

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What it is like?

What is it like to be on edge,
Muffled silence filled with rage?

What it is like with every night with same dream,
A lot to scream?

What is it like to sit and sigh,
Bidding every day a sad good bye?

What is it like when you already know,
And still keep on going with the flow?

What is it like to see them stare,
Not at you,
Might be else somewhere?

What is it like to when you try to sleep
And a sob comes out dark and deep?

What is it like to stare in blank,
Thinking well what's my rank?

What is like to set em as world,
Just to know your existence is theirs is completely blurred?

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What is that delicate thing we hide underneath bones?
'Heart' you said,
'Hurt' I repeated,
You smiled.
We both had a different say.

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When someone says they might leave you,
Trust me they will sooner or later.
It's just about time.

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Give.

We are far more than just walking skeletons covered with blood and flesh.
When we give someone more than we can,
You me and us often end up calling that a foolish move, a foolish person.
But less we know that this life isn't and never wasn't about how much you make yourself.
It has always been about what you become when you give someone your fullest.
Be there,
Yes ! be there,
Someday,
Somewhere for someone.
For your loved one,
For a stranger maybe.
See what it brings to you,
See where it takes you to.
And once you are at it tell me does your doesn't heart race?
Doesn't everyday feels like one happy phase?
And to this good heart with every passing day you'll have everything and guess what sky will be the only thing left to chase.

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And sometimes I ain't brave enough to be just 'gone'.
Because no matter how many times you walk past the door.
For everytime you return,
I'll always have enough room for you and you'll have none in heart.

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I scan the room full of people in despair,
Foreign to my own voice.
Wiping quickly that rushing tear,
I smile pressing my lips hard once and then twice.

I look and the roof and try to close my eyes,
Certainly lost and shifting uncomfortably everytime.
I keep my phone back and pull it close trying to make something out of it but nothing seems to rhyme.

As the night creeps far ahead,
I stare at the crescent in the sky.
Breaking into another sob?
Questioning 'why? '

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आज कुछ तो गलत हो गया,
पाने तुझे निकला मैं और खुद खो गया I

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I want to normalize not having you around,
Cause I own habits soon,
And can't get rid of them for long time.

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I so want to mute and unmute the voices in my head,
I keep hearing you everytime I lay back on my bed.

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