As detrimental is it to my soul and how I'll be letting things out on what I've seen behind the scenes in the past and might actually see, is scary but I might take the courage to walk through it because I'm the type placing the coin showing me either side. I let you know how it is,because you share and make me feel some kind of way, ways! on how you ignite the feeling! like wow I'm in my feelings like I'm wondering this is not a lie, like this is a feeling on how you choose to let me know that I'm in my feelings.
Wise to know that this is a feeling that could vanish, like its a flame that could burn hard, either lighting up some intricate part of my life or burning it into pieces, turn from flame into smoke that fades away like its nothing new, like the saying "nothing new under the sun" same way I've been through this several times, which I was the victim, but them playing the victim.
But you know I'm still in my feeling but hoping this is not a lie like a type of lie that I've to take to heart because your presence has been long felt and shared. It's all love, thoughts and feelings by Ishange.A.E

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Reminiscing all the time,I would've got you around me but don't know what led to the fall off.
I actually had thoughts of you and scenario of what we could be,so lovely that I was pained that I couldn't delay time just to be in that moment but I was glad,I had painted some scenario to play up in my head, playing those scenario over again in my head on what we could be, don't know I could connect with you but girlll you really get me,help me to fill up this emptiness within me and to actually feel what love is like,its not toxic because there are no past hurt brought into here.
I'm still trying to bring you close to me,there are feelings I would like to experience with you and wouldn't want it with anyone but you, just you. i would want to be all over you.
I would always be caressed with a thought and feeling of having you around,its like a chemistry,I can't compare this feeling to any,which I would like to create this history with you.
girlll thoughts of you did turn me to a writer,I actually can't run away from this feeling like I would say its a connection, chemistry. by Ishange A

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LONELY
I've been lonely for a long time which at first I didn't realized or I maybe actually knew I was lonely but felt it was all fun on how I could stay calm and stare at a particular place without been sad,then it graduated to a saying,I found joy in solitude,so wasn't important based on the age and time I've been then, but got to realize as time passed and my age that loneliness could actually eat deep and it wasn't fun but music was one main thing that help me passed through it,but there again it was something I actually couldn't figure out, maybe because I actually feel empty when a person leaves,or that i feel so deeply or that anyone that comes to me will actually feel something great and, I given them all the genuine love I've, was something not usual and this world wasn't meant for people that have that kind of love ❤️so i had to be alone due to loving too much. Because stories upon stories, scenarios upon scenarios been popping up and now I can't actually express what in my head, going numb in my feelings.by Ishange

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Reminiscing
Reminiscing,trying to pin point how life will be felt in two to three years then I stopped like if a force was been attached but there again I couldn't tell if I was on my goal,been patient or was going in a wrong direction which would cause me my time
Then it was all pain,I couldn't even see any gain but I had to strive so hard,fight with all my might then my drive was my light and hope on seeking a better day and life.
I couldn't even tell myself its fine in a way on trying to compensate myself, that it's okay, giving up on hustle and life then until when I checked my shelf of pieces and events and i realized the stages and age on how I came out my shell, sour like a lime in my mouth with how time has passed,if I could check, I had nothing to lose or to rest on but my grind and mind, so I had to persevere,that's where perseverance came into place.
But don't you feel it was more than to persevere because there was so much laying down on the other side like a price to gain or maybe like a dice to either show you its sides by Ishange .A.

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Your smile
I always smile when you looked at my face, my heart did pace any time I get close to you, those shades I put on my face, even though with some case your smile still lighted up my days I couldn't erase or slide through the days you put me first instead of been in a place that important, so intense that I had to close my brief case and run home to see your face,10 out of 10 I still stare at you and got knocked off by your face.

Seeing your face was the highlight of the day,babe I'm not trying to be a lover boy but those smile right to my face and kisses drives out the hate,I knew that was fate when your hand got close to my face,I couldn't being loving that than anything because ten times I'd choose you over again, and never be late to see your face.

I was in the feeling, did I had to tell you to wait?, but those kisses and smile would drive out the hate and maybe if they did overrate I couldn't be late because I knew this was fate. By Ishange .A.

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The Pentecost now comes with plenty cost arresting like handing cuff using the Lord's name to get the just, clear the dust impairing the vision and getting the right scene,I wrote this last night when I was sight seeing in my head I had a penny for my own thoughts then I fucked around and created my own vault! intellectual property couldn't be safer.
one man tops his own game,no neighbor.
One man left the game,no records another man left the fame,which all focused on the shame which rain poured down his face!pain, trying to side line the hate locked out from the gate but you know! Behind the scenes God gave us eyes to see from the scriptures like antidote, even they try to rip us at the scene by Ishanghe .A.

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Strange love
I used to write your name encrypted in an atmosphere,which was solemn, lost and stolen, which anytime I tried unraveling the Box, I was tainted with evil spirit,caressed with a hand that made me fell deeply in thoughts, which always drags me to the box of your loving soul but ominous feelings beckoned me away, I wasn't surprised because been alive, u always made me fell deeply in love with solitude and melancholia mood was always the feeling after the occurrence of solitude, so I wasn't that eager in opening the box 🗃 because your spirit still lingered and rampaged all through the box of your corpse but I always knew, I would find a way to your loving soul which I didn't had any reason to panick in trying to open the box but as I said a spirit, feeling and thought always put me in a state of confusion on opening the box but maybe it was due to I missed those smile and stares but as I said i would always try unraveling the box of your loving soul of the one who puts me in a random state. By Ishanghe.A.E

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Behind my smile there lies a mile,A mile!, a mile I try so hard to find, pondering in my heart so much fight on my mind would that be a signal its hits hard saying go hard and take it now,steady on my grind hoping to find not to lose my mind

You know!, behind the scenes God gave us eyes to see,but the eyes realize true lies every point in time, lies! That Steers cries which led to hate,Hate! Which I tried to stop but was already late to leave it to fate but then which I was already in another State.

Every breath that I'm taking and every step I'm taking in a way I can roam without you because they say home is where your heart is found so from this triangle is where I built myself a Rome I built myself a room! trying to sew my worries into a single cloth behold because I can't afford to lose my soul, I know they're praying I lose so I can't afford to snooze trying to keep my sanity, I pop up when it necessary. By Ishanghe.A.E

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Reincarnation(rebirth)
Old news told new, history made it goes on and on
I wouldn't be the one to alter or predispose if I was the past person,protagonist or the one featured in those past event,place or life's.
Here and now,the writer always knew there was something very intriguing about his existence(restropecting) maybe because he was special or the things he saw that made him feel to examine his own perspective(introspecting) to be reincarnated but if left to him based on past and recent occurrence he would like to flee and make reincarnation to take place over again, where he won't find it hard to manifest his
potentials because that was the major part of his
existence and the reason for the reincarnation.
So he pondered, waited and looked up to the
Sky for his maker to make the reincarnation process to occur because he wasn't living to his existence but living in his recent world so tensed. by Ishanghe A

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Diverse matters
I could try to picture life based on me but there again the things I came across,I could see it was a situation not only felt by me, and not based on only what I saw and felt should be, but to everyone,
It was like the saying "Nothing is new under the sun",so I felt it was something experienced by everyone before and definitely now .
One could see how we panicked through our thought and felt we had something infringing in our peace! Cold faces, blurry eyes like tears almost dropping down which we starred at a certain direction, literally right there trying to face our everyday demons, with our faces close to each other,I could say literally that our thoughts were mixed like sharing the same thought with each other. We'd pay less attention to anything motivational because it all sounded old,nothing new on what we haven't heard.
We couldn't pin point where it all started from maybe it was due to financial issues weighing us down, the bad situation in the country, bad things happen to people we cared for or what we felt should have been but hoping in our mind it turns out the best for all. By Ishanghe.A.

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