A glass in thousand pieces
can mirror my heart,
for the time you’re not here
I think of you through the miles
I want to scream until you can hear no more,
untill my voice makes you stumble.
But fate could be cruel sometimes.
For days you’re not here
at the darkest hours of the night,
just as the world is hushed and silent
you become the queen of my dream world.
It makes me smile, but at times weary
To love someone so much it hurts.
We might be miles apart,
You live rent-free in my heart
~Chiquita Jefa~

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Loneliness is like starvation
you ain’t hungry until you start eating
you then choose just any food to overcome it
Eating while hungry to become more hungry
Longing for the future and forget about the present
A risk set in motion will still roll
Imagine the sun sinking and dim turns to dark
A feeling of dread
It’s a lil distraction
My solace come look back
Just like it should
~Chiquita Jefa_~

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Happy Birthday my Lil Princess
You’ve grown up to be a very
beautiful, intelligent, and warm
young lady with a heart of Gold
We couldn’t have asked for more
You unexpectedly came into our life
and stole all our hearts away
You are the prettiest thief I’ve ever seen
From the moment I saw you
you snuggled right into my heart
and kissed my soul away
unconditionally and unearned
As time flies by with no reason
I’d say your presence in my life
has been a blessing in disguise
Our little miss Blessing
Thanks for always making me proud
With great pleasure and a full heart
I’m wishing you a Happy Birthday and
A fantastic year ahead. Big Love ❤️
~Chiquita Jefa~

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What I want for Christmas
I could use ten million dollars
A Lil Christmas trip to a secret location
Or a bunch of gifts I probably won’t use
My wants can’t come from Santa
But from me and the divine being
Although I have an extended list for my beloved
For them to know I love ‘em all
Above all is the smile on their faces
Out of a billion things a lady could ever want
I just want peace and quiet.
~Chiquita Jefa~

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Our bodies await each other’s fiery touch
between the sheets, in perfect peace
Mysterious and sweet
I want your lips, the taste of hot chocolate
Bury me in the warmth of your embrace
bathing in each other’s cologne
touching your nakedness with mine
melting oneness of our skins
entwining body, soul, and mind
Becoming inseparable
in a moment of never-ending bliss
As our auras lose color
to find one beaming rainbow
Remembering the indescribable insanity of love
that I can’t make because to you
It’s free to give and take.
~Chiquita Jefa~

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I’m not worried I intimidate you
Or will I apologize for your insecurities
Won’t regret rejecting recruitment to toxicity
Never will dim my light cause you ain’t use to the brightness
Does my presence provocate your comfort?
Does my soul speaks louder than a societal mantra
Or is it my honesty and assertiveness that makes you uncomfortable?
Is it my gaze? Face? Or my body? No, can’t be
It has to be my name, or the tone of my voice.
All this dislikes and hate for what? Well
Its behind my back but never to my face
Cause your friend wants to befriend me?
Truth be told I don't want to be y’all friend
Your lack of trust, insecurities, and shitty ways
Be the reason you are what you are.
It be the bitches you tolerate that do the most.
So you painting me the bad guy?
I love being the bad guy
I will be the reason you sleep at night.
I am not intimidating, you are just intimidated
And will not tame my spirit and the way it howls
I won’t be less for you to feel better
Cause in your fairytale… I am the villain
I feed on bad energy. I make your life miserable.
Really? How? In reality, you want what you want
and I don’t what I don’t.
Baby! you ain’t it.
~Chiquita Jefa~

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Spurring us to explore the moon and
venture to the deepest oceans
or our biggest downfall.
The motivation towards our finishing
Which quite doesn’t have a peak
The never-ending wants of humans
To find a weapon or a precious knowledge
Towards the hidden and unknown
treasure of our minds
Which never ends till its destination.
The lure of luminosity we seek at night.
~Chiquita Jefa~

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I fell in love with my demons
Life smiles right back at me
Driven to sell my love for peace
Gave in to the most forbidden love
Became accustomed to its darkness
Quench my thirst from a villain’s spring
Feed my hunger with a baked sorry
To make dreams truths
I turned my lights blue
Our love is stronger
For I am the mistress of the dark.
~Chiquita Jefa~

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Life is so fucked
It gives you roses
no warning about the thorns
Throws shit at you to prepare for the worse
Life does whatever whenever
She’s a bitch
Fucked me to satisfy its orgy
Now it’s my turn
My time to fuck life back
And make this bitch cum in all 69 positions
To see its eyes roll into the back of its head
Feed on her like my favorite meal
I have fasted for this hunger
But my cock has no loyalty to its cunt
For all that she has thrown at me
I’ll use it to my satisfaction.
~Chiquita Jefa~

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Once again
I’m up before the sun
ruminating on the dream that wakes me
My mind is at war with my soul
No where else to go
This is exhausting
Battling my demons
Which nightly consumes me
Caught in this undertow
My throne gave out
Brick by brick
Stick by broken stone
From one bad night to the next
Each one feels hexed
But today once again
I won another battle
One more left to go
With no need left to fight
While it chases off my ghosts
~Chiquita Jefa~

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