Being in love with the right one is like going through the stages of grief..

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I cannot stop thinking, about you.
My mind keeps racing, thinking about you.
Everywhere, this where,
What where, I don't know where..
I've made up my mind, I am crazy.
Things don't happen like this to "normal" people, like eventually my mind will come back down to earth. Eventually, I will remember. To keep-up with my geography. Oh, Lawd, please help me. Hold my hands, and lead me. For I trust in you, you are my peace, all I need. I love you, more than I knew I could ever love someone. I love you with all my heartbeats within every second of every day, and not a moment goes by where I am not thinking about you, and what you are up to. What you're probably looking like right about now, and how those kind of thoughts drive me mad crazy for you. And I'd let you do anything to me, throw me over your shoulder.
I'm yours, and I'm home.

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My heart for you is full,
I feel you when I'm thinking about you.
You are the fire, I am the light; all of it.
Like everything happens for a reason,
And I can't believe my own mind, sometimes.
But my heart speaks to me.
Telling me to trust in you, completely.
I do, I am for you.
I found peace, I wasn't looking.
You, this, unexpected.
It just happened, and I accepted it.
So even though I am not much of a believer,
I pray God is on our sides.
No more laughing,
It's time to be serious.
Just the way you like it.

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Isolation,
my constant back story.
Isolation,
my repeated habit
and all it will cost me is the light,
the light inside my soul
the light inside my heart.
My soul and heart weighed down
from the darkness
I lived through with you.
Three years
of screaming
of the same repeated arguments.
Three years
of heart ache and pain,
could I ever be the same?
The same as I was before,
before I met you,
or will I always be
more quiet than I was before:
Isolated?

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You don't think about,
what I think.
You care about
what I feel;
they are not the same.
What I think,
and how I feel, are.
The world is together
so, are they.
I am if I chose to be.
You don't think about,
what is my thought process.
You care about,
how I feel, when you feel unappreciathe.
unloved; how do I feel about that
when we are, the same.
You're a bitch, same as me.
I appreciate it, greatly.
You don't think about,
what I think.
You care about,
what I feel, but don't understand
to see how I feel them.

Fk o. thx.

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Understanding,
you can love someone
without being in love
like a border,
cutting your mind in half
on a string being pulled apart.

Well.. I am in love with you, my heart, my mind when I think about you, it could just keep rounding things out. I miss the sound, it isn't changing or going away just fading like acquaintance, or even barely.

But my problem is with love, for me it's there in flight mode: ready.
I found circumstantial love exist,
you can love someone without being in love.
That line.. again.

You can love someone
without being in love...

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And all I know is, I miss you. I have been down without you, I love you. You are my heart and soul. I feel you like a ghost, but I talk to it often like an imaginary friend. I have yearned for time that we are a part of each other's lives, again. I constantly wait for again, my entire being...yours if you ever want it... whatever you want.
🤍❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤍

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you sitting across from me

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5 years ago from today,
I woke at 6:30 in the morning
when she passed away
A wonderful woman
I looked up to
and loved, heart and soul
and I wonder
would she be proud,
mad, or disappointed
the day of her wake
I fell to my knees
before making it to the door
I even still cry about it now
I imagine her looking down
knowing the things she sees
would she be happy
with me

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home.
A deeper understanding
to the problems that weigh
on our minds,
answers.
A love we had forgotten or lost,
either from a dream
or reality.
The things we were missing
masking as
the holes in our hearts,
heartache.
Peace...
Anything, which could
always be surprising.

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