Rock Bottom has a basement
Who knew?
It's the place dreams go to sleep
Where passion is dimmed by the warmth of a blanket
Oh and reality checks in regularly
You know what they say
You never really know pain till it feels
like a clot has formed in your chest
And your world shrinks gradually
As it then proceeds to suffocate you.
I don't know who says that either.
But that's how I feel
When I watch my mother's eyes as she lingers on the paper that signifies my failure.
Who knew looks could pierce this much
And words could cause physical pain
Well I guess I did it again
I got an F in Biology again
You might call me melodramatic
But if your parents Don't know the difference
Between pressure and support
Then you do not know my struggles.-
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Isn't it ironic?
How I am afraid of success
Yet terrified of failure.-
"You are a threat!"
An armed officer says
Me?
an unarmed person.
"Don't move! drop your weapon!
When did the colour of my skin become a weapon?
When did my locks turn to Glocks?
When did speaking up for myself become aggression?
How can I remain calm when you're yelling in my face?
Why do I have to pay crimes I did not commit?
How does suffocating me make you feel safe?
Why am I not more than the narrative you've told yourself over and over again?
Why do i have to press record to get justice?
Why does my supposed protection, attack me?
Why do I have to constantly explain to you that black lives matter?
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Generosity in the midst of little
Kindness even when betrayed
She taught me to look into the mirror
And see beauty.
She taught me to seek God always
She also taught me that cats are easily possessed and when I'm a the beach never to go close to the water.
She taught me love,
Responsibility and patience.
Happy Mother's Day, mum-
I ask
Why does it bother me
That you are with her?
Why does it hurt so much?
It's sad how I didn't see you
Till you were in the arms of another
How I didn't want you
Till I could no longer have you-
Is this love or is this bondage
Passion or obsession
You encourage me to fly
Yet you keep my wings
Chained to the ground.
It's like you want the best for me
But only within the walls
You've created
And not a step out of line-
realizing that I can't love myself
Half as much as you love me.
Dear God.
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A place where fear grips
Where one resides in hidden corners
where there is a need for escape
It is the freedom to be.
Home is as simple as a warm embrace
As easy as shared laughter
And as fundamental as assured safety-
In the moments
When smiles surround me
When laughter is pure
And our hearts connect
A little happy
A little frightened
In the novels
This is when the tragedy comes in.
I can only hope
That moments like this are constant.
And tragedy is at a distance.
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What if I find "the one"
And my heart keeps thinking of you?
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