They say life's a marathon

But what if I fall down

I swear I'm not afraid to run

I'm just scared to look around

To see everyone I've ever known has passed me by

It's like I'm running on my own no where near the finish line

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I'm sorry that I'll never be the man that you expect

I'm sorry I'm not coming home with million dollar checks

I'm sorry that I only seem to call when I'm distressed

I'm sorry that you both wanted a son but got a mess

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When you first told me that you needed me it felt so true

Is that the same dumb lie you tell all of your new boys too

After all these years of suffering I feel so used

But to be honest now I'm missing all the damn abuse

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I miss the day met

So I pretend we never did

Now my life is far better off without you in my head

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People think I hate the kid I used to be

But truth is everything I do's for little me

I wanna grow and be a man he'd have been proud of

That's why the only thing I'm striving for is self love

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Used to be so focused on what could've been

But there was nothing for me in the past tense

So I took hold of the present, put fate in my hands

Now I savor every moment that I can

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Took a while to learn that being me should be enough

I shouldn't have to change myself to fit what others dream of

Now everyday I'm working hard to be a man that I can love

Cause I finally understand that being me is just enough

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Took a while to learn that being me should be enough

I shouldn't have to change myself to fit what others dream of

Now everyday I'm working hard to be a man that I can love

Cause now I understand that being me is just enough

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I can't help but feel jealous of the life that all of you have here

Seems like y'all rose to the top the moment that I disappeared

Now I'm stuck on the ground tryna relieve all our early years

While y'all are on cloud nine and I don't know if I can persevere

But I won't even lie I'm still happy for how far y'all came

I only hope if all goes well that I'll be floating up there too one day

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I can't help but feel jealous of the life that all of you have here

Seems like y'all rose to the top the moment that I disappeared

Now I'm stuck on the ground tryna relieve all our early years

While y'all are on cloud nine and I don't know if I can preserve

But I won't even lie I'm still happy for how far y'all came

And I hope that if all goes well I'll be floating up there too one day

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