Sometimes we are so focused on our future that we don't realise we have everything that we used to pray for..

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As I've said before, i can live with you not being in my life.
But i wanted you coz you seem to make my world bright.

I saw a future where you and i were happy together,
But you said it's not possible and not loving you would be better.

I love being around you, but I'd rather adjust to your absence,
Than continuosly be mistreated and hurt just to be in your presence.

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I knew you were special when i started choosing you over being alone.
I knew you were special

That's special for me coz i can count on one hand the places that i feel at peace.
And so far the only one that has had breath and a beating heart was me.

But with you, for the first time i craved the sound of someone else's heartbeat.
Though i don't crave it like a chocolate cake but the way you crave silence after a long day.

I know i can survive without you, i can live with you not being in my life.
But i still want you bcoz even though we live inside a dangerously empty life, you always seem to bring me light.

I don't want you because i need you but bcoz who you are settles something in me that can't be settled on its own.
And for once i feel at peace when I'm not alone.

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I know I overthink a lot
I worry a lot
I get scared a lot
I think of the worst
I expect a bad outcome
And it's not because I don't care Or i don't trust you
It's because i care too much
And i don't trust my thoughts
I question everything until i understand
I can't control my thoughts and it's not my fault
I've had the worst come to me
So a part of me expects you to bring me the best
But I'm still scared that you'll add onto the worst
But I'll keep trying, coz that's what I do.

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Let's pretend that its Yesterday,
Let's pretend that it's better off this way.
Let's pretend that you never felt anything holding me in your arms,
Let's pretend that you didn't really lead me on.
Let's pretend that we really were just friends,
LET'S PRETEND!

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There are still no words i can say to describe,
My heart it aches and my eyes they cry.
I await the time when my hand is in yours,
Looking into my eyes, you say those 3 little words.

Even though you're not here,
And i miss you so much my dear.
What i wanna say is that I'm yours forever and ever,
What i'm actually tryna say is that, I love you, i love you my far away lover.

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You are the shadow to my light,
You are everything to me, that words cannot describe.
You know how i feel for you deep inside,
That feeling of love that i cannot hide.

Its funny how you can make me giggle, even at the worst of the times.
You make me smile so hard, that i might have indented lines.
Yeah one person can do all this, and its such a bliss.
That makes me want, want that one Kiss.

You know how i feel about you,
And i know i wanna spend the rest of my life with you,
But it's so hard to do when i can't even be next to you.
Loving you feels so right, but not being able, to be with you, keeps me awake at night.

I lay in my bed and think about you
I owe you so much i dont know what to do
I feel your warmth at my side
The pain in my heart moves to my eyes.

I await the times when we can talk
I await the times when we can finally hold hands and walk.
To feel you for real, so close to me,
The happiest person in the world is what you'd make me.

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He's a guy, Lady.

You will open up to him
And he will completely shut you down!

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Everytime i see you it brightens my day
I wish i could tell you, but i have no words to say.
When i think about you my heart fills with glee,
I dream of us together, how happy we would be.

Its funny how you can make me giggle, even at the worst of the times.
You make me smile so hard, that i might have indented lines.
Yeah one person can do all this, and its such a bliss.
That makes you want, want that one Kiss.

The sound of your voice makes me shiver and quiver,
With your mere kind words, you make my heart grow bigger.
I know its me that has these feelings not you, but i can wait for a while,
Because you can always make me smile.

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You always make me smile,
You make everyday worth the while.
You are the butterfly i feel deep inside,
That feeling of love that i cannot hide.

With you in my thoughts,
I unwillingly get lost.
When I'm busy, sleepy, nothing to do,
I still keep smiling with thoughts of you.

When i think about you,
My heart beat slows.
To give you an ovation,
I'll do anything, even sheer manipulation.

You're there when I'm about to sleep,
And all throughout the night.
You are there when i wake,
You never leave my sight.

My biggest goal is for you to be mine,
If you were, I'd hit cloud nine.
It's a game of love roulette, gun is loaded
Loving a friend is friendship suicide, I'll make sure its noted.

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