मुझे तू याद हे,
याद हे तू, तेरी खामोशियां याद हे,
तेरी चुप्पियां याद हे,और उनमे मेरा बैर याद हे,
याद हे तेरी वजहें मगर मेरा गुरूर ज्यादा याद हे,

मुझे तू याद हे,
याद हे तू, तेरी बचकानियां याद हे,
तेरी मस्तियां याद हे, और उनमे मेरा बे एहसास याद हे,
याद हे तेरी नजदीकियां मगर मेरी दूरियां ज्यादा याद हे,

मुझे तू याद हे,
याद हे तू, तेरी यादें याद हे,
तेरी यादों मे में सब कुछ मगर मेरी यादों में तू था ही नही याद हे,
और अब मुझे मेरी यादों मे सिर्फ तू याद हे मगर सल दुनियां मे तू नही हे ।

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And then there's the breaking point after which literally no one would stand by you!!

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Somewhere I got more than what I deserve,
But somewhere I still yearn for more..

Her love is addictive and my selfishness and greed for it's exclusivity and intensity is justified for me.

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Carry and I cry,
Cry and I carry.

Still yet restless,
Restless but still.

Silence in the noise,
Noise in the silence.

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There's a throbbing sensation in my heart like something heavy is being thrusted onto it repeatedly, the pain of which is clouding my eyes but I cannot afford to rain it down.

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Wrap your heart in a thick foil and insulate yourself from her warmth and you may find your peace.

NO!! I'd rather be at war with myself than devoid myself of her warmth.

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But maybe it was not love that you felt and still feel, maybe it was just the comfort and affection that you mistook for love..

But then you should have moved on by now.

Something that hurts you and comforts you with the same intensity can't just be affection.

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She caressed your wounds that day and since then she had always cared for you.
You were heartbroken and found solace in her, she was the comfort to all your pain.
Deep down you felt something for her, with her, you understood what it was like, to be loved and cared.
You couldn't stop yourself from feeling for her, falling for her despite knowing she can never be yours.
You let that feeling stay , hoping that the unconditional love and care showered upon you was just enough for you to live along or that you thought what you felt for her would subside away with time.

But has either of it happened?
No, infact you are in much deeper waters now, of what you felt back then.
Rather , it has become a burden for you, It's tormenting you, isn't it ?

You wouldn't and you couldn't do anything, not even utter about it to her, coz you knew that she was never yours to ask and you'd never destroy something beautiful of hers for your selfishness.

Your mind continuously fires you for not stopping yourself in the first place but your heart convinces you from doing that even today.

How are you gonna live with a feeling that's equally comforting and tormenting at the same time ?

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And beyond the pain you once thought was limitless,
And beyond the sorrow you once thought was endless,

You EMBRACED it,
You LIBERATED yourself.

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Time is cruel, it takes away your happiness just when you start living it..

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