You are all mine ❤️

Why would I need a perfect partner.. when a crazy one fills up the gap in life. You are my missing part.
Why would I pray for happiness.. when I have a person who can turn my bad day into a memorable one. You are my fairytale!
Why would I crave for love.. when your one hug can calm my storm. You are my magic light!
Why would I worry about future.. when I'm destined to live with you for my whole life. You are my forever!
Why would I cry on heartbreaks.. when I found a beautiful heart. You are my favourite dream!
The way sky holds the moon tight, similarly, you are mine.

Your hands and the way they hold mine!
Your eyes and the way they shine every time!
Your smile and the way it completes my day!
You are all mine and I love you eternally <3

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Dealing with gloomy days with a hope,
As if one day you would come and hug me tight.
Getting anxious every time I get a call,
As if you are calling me to ask about my problematic life.

I trusted you even after all those bad experiences,
In a hope that at least you would stay forever,
And be a good vibe that I can always rely on.
At last, all you proved is - I don't deserve love.

Can you take me to those beautiful old memories,
As if this ugly mess never happened between us.
I know I'm still hanging on to that broken bond,
And not ready to let you go even now.

Laying on the bed, staring at the wall,
All my mind murmuring is your name.
Coping with every dark night to not cry at all.
Handling all this pain and still smiling!

Thanks to all your promises that you failed to keep.
After all the shattered dreams and shredded tears,
I'm learning to stand up steady in the storm.
One day, I will meet you again as an invincible person but will still care for you!!

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Just breathing!

I don't read poetries,
I don't feel like writing anymore.
It scares me to start a new conversation,
The past is still haunting me somewhere.

Isn't it weird to be in the illusion,
After knowing that it doesn't get better.
Bringing in those painful memories every night,
And crying about my vulnerabilities.

Something is always running in my mind,
But none of those thoughts seems productive.
My inner voice is ruining peace with all those insecurities,
And making me believe that this pain has no end.

What if I break down someday in front of the world,
Will I ever be able to come back stronger?
What if everyone knows how mentally disturbed I'm,
Will I ever get out of this gloomy phase?

There is no end to these "what-if" thoughts.
Now, I'm choosing silence as an answer to every question.
Just breathing and hoping for days to get better!
Just breathing till I find myself again!

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All alone!

I'm a bundle of ignored dissatisfaction,
Without a ray of hope in good times!
I wasn't stubborn to change but...
I choose to let myself be in old times.

I'm a little bird that got stuck in a cage,
Without my saviour around, to help!
I wasn't responsible for my helplessness but...
I choose to fight alone and get out of that cage.

I'm an unlucky flower that was separated from a bunch,
Without the peaceful warmth of the parent tree!
I wasn't the one who has a bad destiny but...
I choose to find my own peace and happiness.

I'm the only survivor after a dreadful storm,
Without any movement in my body or any thought in brain!
I wasn't the one who was always at fault but...
I choose to stay silent at times when I needed to speak out.

I'm a lone star hanging around the moon,
Without a sparkle in the dark sky!
I wasn't left alone in that mess but...
I choose to walk alone till I reach my destination.

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He is my HOME!

I know I look more beautiful,
When he is around!
You can see my pink cheeks,
Which he adores the most!

He brings peace and joy into my life,
When I'm in the storm and can't get out of it!
I could stare at his shining eyes...
All my life and never get bored!

Sometimes it's his warmth in the hug,
That I could crave for, on every restless day!
Sometimes it's his lame jokes and teasing,
For which I look for, on all my bad days!

All I could tell is "I found my home in him",
Pointing at the man of my dreams!
He's my mate whom my soul found after endless struggles,
I wonder, how life would be without him!

That bright smile on his face can put me at ease.
Healing would be so easy when he holds me tight.
The way he treats me and the way he loves me!
What else do I need in this life! Just HIM❤️

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And at the end...!

There were days when I couldn't come out of bed.
Scared? Na did not have enough strength.
There were days when I want to scream out loud...
That things are not getting better anymore.

Shutting doors, closing windows or messy room!
People around me, are not welcoming.
And at the end, I see myself sitting in a corner alone...
Without any thought in my head, as if just brain dead.

Every happy day came in my way like a painful memory.
Dreams are almost shattered and are replaced by bad nightmares.
My poetry requested me to bleed through words...
While the days of depression were smiling from the corner!

Praying God each moment to help me heal this pain.
What if someday I wake up with all my scars visible to the world.
Will I be able to take all the judgemental thoughts?
I beg words every day to help me stand for myself.

The situations I handled, the trauma I lived!
The problems I suffered, the dreams I forgot!
And in the end, nothing among them mattered...
Except the life, I lost while worrying about each of them.

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The world that was shining before seems gloomy!
I know the problem is not with the world but with me.
They say it's my defect for being vulnerable to pain but,
All I can do is look at myself in the mirror and cry every day.

Cheers to the endless tears and life full of self-hurts!
I lost the power of bouncing back stronger, long ago.
They say it's my incapability to express my point but,
All I can do is put a fake smile in front of people.

Dark circles explain how the demon in my head is bothering me every night.
Peaceful sleep is the only desire, now I have in life.
They say I'm too sensitive to handle problems but,
All I can do is sit back and avoid arguments.

I may not win all the battles that life put me in but I'm still a fighter.
At least I'm trying to suppress the haunting void.
They say I'm a completely changed person with all flaws but,
All I can do is learn to survive, be kind, love and respect.

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Hello, "ANXIETY"!

There is no sunshine in the world.
Not even searching for it, from so long.
Dreams were broken in those dead eyes.
Hello ANXIETY! I'm tired of dealing with you.

I'm scared of mornings and meeting people.
Not even want to come out of bed.
It's becoming heavier to hold day by day.
Hello ANXIETY! I'm tired of lying about my fake smile.

They say, speak to people openly about your distress.
But "stop overreacting" is the only response I get.
How do I explain to them it is making me weak!
Hello ANXIETY! I'm tired of worrying about everything.

I couldn't stay happy in situations when I should be.
I tried to put everything in a poetry and make it an art.
I failed and broke down each time.
Hello ANXIETY! I'm tired of complaining about life.

I want to scream at people and justify my feelings,
That it is not an illusion but I'm actually suffering.
But what if they think I'm not strong enough to handle my own things?
Hello ANXIETY! Please leave me before I choose death over you.

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What you all see is him, standing steady even at the storm...
What you don't know is her, supporting him to stand straight!

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I wish to wake up every day beside you.
You are the last thought at every night.
I feel so protected when I'm with you,
And I always pray for our togetherness.

Despite of staying miles away from you,
Your memories make me brave and happy.
The old conversations are enough to glow my face,
And your voice notes are all I ever need.

Hands in hands and journey till infinity,
I won't complain about the obstacles in the path.
Your smile is the only sparkle in my darkest life,
And it is enough to turn my cheeks pink.

My heart is craving for your aroma every second.
I know this feeling for you is my addiction,
Which I can't get rid of even at my last stage.
I miss you even in my dreams.

Maybe you are the best thing that ever happened to me,
Or maybe I was destined to fall for you.
Be it in this birth or 100th, I just want you.
I love you now and forever with all my heart <3

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