Life’s too short to argue.
Just pretend to be dumb.

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THE FIRST CONVERSATION

Oh, I remember the first conversation we ever had,
The first impressions and first glances that still keeps me awake in bed.
It was a silly game of Truth and Dare
That my friends made me do, while all they did was glare.
Walked through the rows, to get to you
While you were sitting there with a look that said "Excuse you?"
Calmed down my nerves, moving ahead with the game,
"Hey, Where you from, drop your Instagram, well what's your name?"
And boy, did you go along with it too, and fanned me with all the answers and hit me with a "It's a dare, isn't it though? "
Was it my nerves that deafened me, or maybe you felt it too?
The intimidation, the tension, the confusion, or maybe your friends teasing you?
Oh and it's never boring even after all this time,
Remembering the first conversation that we ever had.

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"Will it be the last time? "
Were the words that were drowned in the back of my mind,
Looking up at the sky, I could see the snow
Falling onto my hair, as they made my soul flow
"It's snowing, mother, it's so pretty" were the words of joy that drifted off my mouth
She smiled stars as if she was in a happiness drouth.
Holding out my hand as the white fluffs made their way to my palm,
Look at the ground, all white and silent, as if it were made to be calm.
Amidst the delightful aeon, a small sad piece of wordings crossed my head,
"Will it be the last snow that the sky will shed? "

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"Everything's alright, it's just your mind"
I kept consoling my heart repeating those words on rewind.
Am I just too sensitive?
Haa, perhaps I must send those thoughts on a leave.
With a hope that it's all a game of time
That's making all my emotions whine.
Why can't such times pass faster?
Was it wrong that I didn't want to end up in the gutter?
I felt a teardrop fall on my cheek
Oh lord, please don't be weak.
"I can't bear this longer", my heart said,
"Just wait till the cloud passes away", my mind said.
Must I just let it go and keep it within me at the same time?
" No, everything's alright, it's just your mind"
And I kept consoling my heart repeating those words on rewind.

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Treated like a kid, but expected to act like an adult.
Not quite enjoyable being 18 is, is it?

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And when the world falls apart, hold yourself down to the ground so that you won't stumble with it.

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Look here.
It's just me, existing with myself.

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Sometimes I feel like I'm living near a rainbow, 'cuz people around me be changing their colours every second.

They hide their true dark colours and keep pretending to be bright and nice.

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Hating me for being nice to people?
Congrats, you've unlocked my cold side which doesn't give two f*cks about you!

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Empty benches, empty halls
As I tried to cry a tear which never falls.
With a bag on my back
While I kept watching them as I left,
As I carried those memories and pictures with me
While wishing to become unnoticed once again,
Wish I could hold 'em back as the secrets spilled
But they said all I should do is stay chilled.
I tried not to worry
But still they keep coming back to my memory.
So I swept my hand over the dust
Cuz it seemed like they were gold and glitter,
The ones that carried all of me and all of us
Those empty benches and empty halls.

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