I pretended to be.
I do still.
It's not easy. Yes, but I'm willing to keep up this pretense going untill it's over.
All of it. — % &

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when it's gone, you feel nothing. Numb to every happiness, sorrow and pain of your life. The apathy towards everyone and everything drives you into the abyss like that of a blackhole,from where the exit is a paradox.

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Plants, trees, Greenery everywhere. Then it moved to North and saw white blanket of snow covering the land. It saw immensely beautiful ocean and in depth of it beautiful creatures. Then it saw a peculiar animal, and it's guide book says, this animal currently posses the highest number of population and the animal is believed to be have the highest intelligence on the planet. It got curious and moved closer to inspect a bit more of its behaviour. It was confuse and thought how the guide book can be wrong about the species having highest intelligence, because it saw the animal cutting the large trees of equator of planet. Producing some high toxic substances from some structures, they call "industrial building" in their language. It saw the animal species Killing other animals and own species as well for something called "advantage". The alien wasn't aware of the animal having emotions. He noted them in his log. Then the alien thought well, why not comeback later and observe better.
But when it came back around one century in the observed animal language, the land of desolate, devoid of life, greenery, snow and most importantly the animal he observed. It returned to home planet.

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You can't hold it, even if you know it is meant to be.
You can't force it to reciprocate the way you do.

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FIGHT
Fight till my soul is burned to crisp carbon with no trace of original form, devoid of any ounce of my life.

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The stormy night we met
The warmth we felt,
The struggle we dealt
happiness that we collected.

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Drawn Like moths to fire
Knowing will get burned
But, Temptation of warmth is luxury.

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It would have been flying wide in sky
the bird which rare to find
can't be caged in gold
Soaring high touching the endless sky.

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Giving attention, time, space
To what you want to achieve.

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Words, my brain asked me to not say so. Because it might be too straight forward for your brain to handle and, and too salty to make your heart dry.

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