A letter to my Ex

I think of you now and then, when my mind is tired and my defenses drawn

I wander back into our old life, through the gate of our old house, and am suddenly there

I don't fight it this time, I just walk back in, to the music on and the candles burning

I don't think of the hard times, I don't think of the end

I just lay back with a kind smile and no regrets and let, for this moment, old love live again

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Be what you used to be, again.

There's a stigma that floats around,
And I know there's some truth to it,
That when you are at your lowest,
You keep falling lower, and lower.
You think, what have I even got to lose,
What more can possibly go wrong,
But in no time, you realise, that it can,
That's the moment you should get real,
And get back to what you used to be once,
The world's not going to be fair to you,
But that's the thing about world,
It's not fair to anyone else either.

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You fell in love with the beautiful winter that year,
Just like you fall in love with every other season,
I remember the days when you'd whisper in my ear,
That we'll never be apart, there was no reason.

Every thought about you and me was then clear.
We weaved the memories and imagined the future,
Little did we know that everything can disappear,
Now I can only wish things should've been smoother.

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यादें
जब भी कभी कोशिश की है तुम्हें भुलाने की,
वो यादें मिटाने की जो तुम्हारे साथ बनाई थीं,
दिल ने हर बार कहा की मत कर यह गलती,
माना की नहीं हो तुम मेरे साथ अभी,
लेकिन हर एक पल जिसमें थी तुम्हारी मौजूदगी,
हर वो पल था किसी भी चीज़ से ज़्यादा कीमती।

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Nostalgia

I live in two different worlds all the time,
The other one is the world of nostalgia,
Which engulfs every memory I've lived,
Some amazing, some not so much so,
Some happy memories, some really sad,
And still every memory seems happy to me,
Somehow every mistake seems like a fun memory,
But I'm brought back to this world again,
And realise that I'll be remembering these moments,
In distant future and loving them as nostalgia.

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Are they my friends?

The people that meet me everyday,
People who ask about how I am,
With or without actually caring about the answer,
Or that's what I feel about it.

The people I have fun with,
People that I have the best of my memories with,
People who claim to love me,
People who made my life worth remembering.

I've been asking myself lately,
And this question hurts but
Are they really my friends?

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Though I've been told
Plenty times before

It's okay to just let go
That a tree is a tree

Wherever you go
The ones here
And the ones back home
Don't look different at all

Yet I can't fathom
How much I'll miss
These ancient forests
Arrogantly named "new"

I don't understand why
Or how I can relate so
The longing for a river
I haven't yet seen

Longing is mutual

No one told me
How easy it was
To divide one's life in two
To leave one behind
In this place I came to know

Now, no matter where I go
There will always be
Someone to miss
Something to long for

Longing is eternal

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The world would've been a better place,
If all the feelings were clear and loud,
But everything has it's own perks,
And many shortcomings of it's own,
I get this feeling all the time,
That you're not being true to me,
But in my heart, I feel there's something.

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Feels and Desires

Every breath you take,
I feel it right through my heart,
As I look in your eyes,
I feel the depths of love in them,
And I would to swim,
In our endless memories together,
And I would take you,
To the other side, void of the scars.

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I Do.

Everything you say takes me to different dimensions,
Some things make me overthink,
Some things you say become my ultimate laws of life,
Some things you say I know, are just plain stupid,
But at end of the day, I seek you. I do.

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