how could you leave this in the past?
how could you replace me?
how could you erase me?
maybe you hate me.

what happened to forever?
where’s the future that might’ve been?
who’s going to fix this mess that you’ve left?
how will i ever heal?

you can’t break a heart & feel nothing.
you must be this emotional wreck.
so go and break more hearts out in this world.
pay the consequences.


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“if you were okay without them before you even met them, you’re gonna be okay after.”


i know that it feels like your world is crashing down
& you aren’t sure that you
can survive this storm alone.
you are alive & breathing.
he wasn’t your lifeline.
he wasn’t your air.
he was one part of your life.
apart of this chapter.
a chapter that you had to go through.
there’s no skipping out on a chapter.
this is it, this is your life.


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why did you leave at my worst.
was this your plan?
do you feel joy leaving me empty.
you destroyed me.
you wrecked my heart.
you made me feel weak.

i thank you for the heartache.
i thank you for the pain.
i thank you for this lesson.
and now i let this rest in
the graveyard of the past.

don’t come back.
don’t try and fix this heart.
don’t destroy me a second time.
it’s time to heal this broken home.


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if i could take back my heart would i?
if i could erase the memories would i?
if i could rewind things would i?
if only i could forget you.
forget the pain that you caused.

if only it were that easy.
easy to erase the scars.
easy to feel nothing.
easy to never love you.

you’re the one who left.
i’m the one who’s broken.
i’m the mess that you forgot.
am i really that easy to replace?

don’t forget the love that i gave to you.


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fuck you for leaving.
fuck you for breaking
my heart.
fuck you for not
loving me.

but, none of that is my fault.
you’re in love with someone
else & i have to be ok with
that.

i forgive you for choosing
her.
i forgive you for leaving.
i am healing.


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i still look for you in everyone.
i still search for the same
color of your eyes.
i search for your smile.

i try to fill this emptiness
with other men,
but it just makes
me feel weak.
they aren’t you.

i miss you.
i want you.
i need you.
where are you?


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tell me, how can i live
without you?
tell me, how can i survive
without you?
tell me, how can i
move on without you?

i can’t.
i won’t.
i refuse.

i am still in love
with the idea of you.
the idea of us.
it was you and me.


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you tell them “i love you”.
over and over.
until they themselves believe
you.

until it’s all they know.
until it’s familiar.
until the end.

now,
you tell them that
you never loved them.
and
you leave.


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i think that i fell in love
with your eyes first.
then it was your voice.
it was the soft feeling
of your skin.

it was your touch.
it was your smell.
it was your smile.

now i’m sitting here sitting
on the bathroom floor shaking.
crying into my hands.
wanting you to tell me that it’ll be ok
again.


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i’m tired of this feeling.
i’m tired of feeling.
i’m tired of having feelings.

i’m drowning.
in this continuous nightmare.
someone come & save me.
help.

now i’m in a meadow.
sun keeps shining,
maybe there is light.
i’m ok.


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