everytime you come back,
my heart says I'm going to lose you again,
she also says "let him come... let him in..."
and I let you in,
and everytime I let you in,
i lose you again,
everytime you go,
i lose you again,
and with you, a piece of my heart follows,
my heart is breaking,
she breaks everytime you let me in and let me go,
she breaks and breaks,
how do I keep keeping you and letting you go?
how do i get the strength for this?
I'm weak... I'm weak.

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I had seen you falling in love
with me, twinkling eyes,
giggling smiles.
And then I saw you falling
for her, twinkling eyes,
giggling smiles.
And my heart breaks, breaks,
breaks, breaks a little more.

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Let me tell you a story about me,
where I'm the side character,
and the main character is he;
where all he has to do is smile,
and I will drown in his eyes;
the story was pretty at first,
even looked promising as it goes by,
but when it took a turn, I cry,
and tears became my only company
the story keeps repeating in my head,
I keep trying to change the plot,
then reality hits, and I'm all alone again,
where is he? my main character in this story?

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she loves disappearing;
she thinks she is not strong
because she is not as hard as rock,
she's like water;
she always finds a way to keep on
m o v i n g.

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seat 20F
going to the airport
alone at 3am
in a place where
you look like a foreigner;
feeling proud of myself,
watching the sunrise
from the airplane;
it was worth it,
and
I'm finally going home.

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you've only seen my skin
not the world i hide within;
you'll wonder what i hide,
but can only wander around the walls;
you'll see flowers blooming
and grasses fading fast;
there'll be summer of course,
but winter and fall alike;
there are beautiful chaos inside me
a perfectly put together mess;
you'll be excited yet terrified,
but when i know you're ready
I'll let you come inside.

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We can't change their heart
just by giving them ours.

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I turn 21 tomorrow and I want to cry
I'm sitting on the bathroom floor
thinking if I want to die
My friends are knocking on my door, One is pretty freaked out
One of them gets it all, and tells them to chill,
It's very normal, she says as I sobbed my eyeballs out,
I want them to all go away, I swear I'm alright,
this is just a temporary thing, I'll be fine by tonight.
Let me just be alone, with my feelings
and my thoughts, I'll pull myself up, I promise,
I've just wondered how it would feel to be 21
Now that it's right next to me,
My heart is overwhelmed, I'm excited too,
but still I'm terrified. I texted them please go away,
I'm fine don't worry, I say
I got out after a while, somehow more grateful for this life.
I've got friends who care, and people who I love.
I turn 21 tomorrow, will be cooler than 20, I'm sure.

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where do I put down
all of the left over information
you left me?
how do I learn to forget?

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Hopelessly in love
with a memory.

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