So many what ifs and why buts.
Everytime the judgment involved you i ended up pleading guilty for a felony i never committed.
Each time, to rid you of the guilt and myself of the dejection, i paid the penalty.
For once i put my foot down and then there were no more trials to be fought.
No ifs no buts.

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The old school photograph brought back a strong tide of memories.
My ebbing feelings for that crooked smile and naughty glint in your eyes once again grew into an enormous wave crashing against the walls of my heart.
Maybe this is a transient escapade for my frail mind from this unending ennui.
However it was a pleasurable reverie while it lasted.
Or maybe this is my ineluctable reality.

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As a child i was never afraid of water.
But i did not know how to swim,
many a times i have drowned myself, almost sinking to the bottom with water rushing into my nose and ears.
Helplessly trying to call out to someone, only to have more water rush in...
But i never sank, i was always saved by some kind hand, strong hands.
Faith, was what helped me to keep going into the waters many more times until i had learnt to master the tide own my own.
But today as i stare at this impassable gulf between us, I'm suddenly overcome with fear unknown
Frightened of drowning, suffocating and going down
The credence i had in myself flown.

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Receiving a gift from the future for the present to makeup for all the crappy things the last year did to you!

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6 years is a long time to spend in one place. Long enough to make the place feel like home, long enough to make the people you met there feel like family, long enough to help you grow as a person and as a professional, but i guess it never is long enough to make you not miss it once you have to leave.
So here's to the most underrated 6 years of my life, you are going to be remembered and cherished for all the wonderful memories, amazing friends, chaotic days, mischevious nights, choices of food, unquestionable freedom, chances that were taken or lost, even the maniacal exam stresses and most importantly for letting me be Me, unapologetically unabashedly.

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The last time you left and i rued it, felt exactly like the time before that and the one before that and the one before.
I see the pattern now, and it's no harlequin.
It's all monochrome!!

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When the parting words aren't exactly a goodbye, they most definitely mean see you later.

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You can never imagine a colour you haven't seen.
If you still remember the light in my eyes that day you can never imagine them shining so bright for anyone else.

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The houses on both the sides stand in a melancholic stance
They too seem to have lost the charm they once held
The mourning in my broken heart reflecting on their worn down,gray walls.

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Let me show you to the door.
Thankyou for stopping by.

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