Playboys never give their all. They love bomb just to get hold of your heart. Then they start breadcrumbing enough for the connection not to fall apart.
I half-heartedly taste everything while leaving nothing because having regrets about missing out is my biggest insecurity. I always become the jack of all trades and the master of none as it is hard to silence the FOMO and focus on the one.
I don't want to quit building something because I cannot peek into the future to judge its perfection. I don't want to believe all my effort goes in vain in the present just because I can't yet see the reflection.
I pray to god not just to protect me but to throw me under the bus so that I am forced to sit through the pain and crawl. It's like convincing someone to push me for a bungee jump because I don't have enough courage to initiate the fall.