What's love?
Sending lovy dovy messages??
Texting whole night??
Talking whole day??
Uploading pictures together??
Meeting each other??
Ya may be it's But......
it has a possibility of
MAY NOT BE also
But for me
Love is
Mom giving you 3/4 despite of ASKING FOR 2/4
Thinking about that same person daily even
when you ARE NOT FREE
Papa worrying about you in LATE NIGHTin house because you're sick in hostel
Sister giving her favorite top even after you made her previous favorite top get STAINED
Parents talking to you the same way next day even after you scream out LOUD on phone just because they asked you to READ WELL
Your friend listening to your bakwas even though he feels
YOU'RE PAGAL AURAT

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Why do you hate him¿¿¿
Have you ever loved someone sooo much that sometimes you just don't know why but
you just HATE them?
Is it because you love him more than you love yourself????
How can you love him more than you love yourself??????
Ya its possible.......
Every thing is possible when you're in LOVE........

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Why can't you sleep without crying?
Why would you get obsessed over someone
who's not yours and expect them to be yours till end
Which is impossible...
Can't you just leave him???
How can you leave him just like that???
He's soo good....what if he's......
Why do you overthink everything???
Why is he talking to me after all???
He's just being nice got it???
Just be a good friend with whom he can rely on
that's it... And that's final
(Nooo just push him away he is no different)
(Your existence doesn't affect his life)
(No he's not like others)

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In search of that "my perfect boyfriend" I'm just pushing away all thoseeeee poor good souls which are stitching my broken heart.
How harsh you can be than this¿¿¿

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Do you text him everything you do and everything you see???
How can he read all my bakwas stories
I text ???
How can he understand my mood just by text???
How can he do those small little things which he's not comfortable but still just because I asked him to do???
How can he reply to each and every single message I send him because of my overthinking???
How can he give me those butterflies which I don't wanttttt to accept them as butterflies???
Isn't it fair to know his face and voice¿¿¿
I can't ask for his photo....
Can I?????
Why didn't I ask him till these days¿¿¿

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You know what
sometimes it's fine totally fine
When you don't want others to know that you are are feeling low
When you don't want others to miss the old version of youuu
When you don't want others to remember those scars you have
When you don't want others to lead/mislead the your path
When you don't want others to know that you are abnormal
When you don't want others to know you that you are crying....

It's also finee
When it's you instead of others

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Whos is he?????
Don't know his real name
Don't know his face
Don't know where he's from
Don't know what he does
BUT
Don't know why I'm curious about his
Views
Don't know why I'm curious about his
Work
Don't know why I'm curious about his
Thoughts
Don't know why I'm NOT curious about his
face
Don't know where this curiosity will take me
Will I stop taking to him?? (Like I do with others)
Orr Will I end up falling for himmmmm???

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Texting him is fun
Asking him lots and lots of my dumb questions and
he teaching me while scolding sarcastically is fun
Sending him stickers which are irritation for him is much moreee fun
BUT
Him telling me the facts is scary
Him telling me the dark truths is scary
Him liking to be anonymous is scary as hell
But think what's scarier
His flirting 😳

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NOT knowing what love is
But forcing myself to believe in love for just once
NOT knowing who he's, what he's doing , how he will treat me, how we will endup scares me to hell
But just trying to believe in love for once

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