हमारा साथ होना इसलिये भी ख़ूबसूरत है क्यूंकि हम तो एक दूसरे को ढूँढ़ ही नहीं रहे थे…..

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I never wanted to let you go.. but I couldn’t hold you…
I never lost feelings for you.. but I just realised you didn’t want me.. so I gave up!
It wasn’t because my heart stopped caring.. it was because it hurts too much to keep holding onto something that wasn’t mutual..
I had to choose myself even when every part of me wanted to keep choosing you..

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कभी जीना कठिन लगे तो याद रखना…
कि इस बाहर की दुनिया में जीने के लिए अंदर से मरना पड़ता है।

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And someday we all will disappear from each other’s life..

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Ambulances are sent for broken bodies, not broken hearts..

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I thought that my heartache was a symptom of you leaving.. but it’s still here long after you’re gone !

And I’m starting to think it isn’t your fault.. and maybe there’s something more that’s wrong!

Like maybe I’ve always felt unlovable and you just reinforced my doubts.. maybe there’s always been a hole in my heart and you just turned it inside out!

And finally I can see how empty it’s been and how you’re not to blame.. my heartache is just a symptom of existing .. you were just a player in the game.

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I’m starting to forget you..and I thought I’d feel a relief…
When the last of you dissolved into a distant memory..
But now there’s this weight in my chest..a tugging in my bones..
Like I’m constantly in search of something I used to know..
Like a song I cant remember a word on the tip of my tongue..
In loosing you my heart was loosened.. but in forgetting you I’m undone..
Fraction of a person strewn across the floor.. they say time makes it better.. but I’m not so sure anymore..
Because time may seem merciful but dont be fooled..
Time is a thief.. time is a criminal dressed up in a costume of relief..
So here I am.. desperate fingernails caked with dirt.. from digging for a piece of you that’ll never be unearthed and oh I feel so guilty..
I stop digging.. stop trying to hold on like I was trusted to keep you alive.. but now you’re truly gone..
I used to think forgetting you would fix this empty hole.. but it turns out memories are heavier to release than they are to hold.

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I’ve been trying hard and without fail..
Trying to make you feel the way I feel for you..
Trying to make you want me the way I want you..
Trying to get that gaze that I always hold for you..
Trying to sit smile and talk to you for endless hours.. believing I’m living it for real …
But its just me who’s trying to.. and I feel tired and done.. so I abandon this feeling now because this is not the first time and certainly not the last..

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In a world that often seems cold
I found someone I want to hold

Meeting you was probably destined
But in this life I cannot call you mine

Every time I see you my heart misses a beat
A day without your thought is always incomplete

From afar, I secretly admire your grace
Not sure if you see the depth of my gaze

I’d say you’ve made me happy just by being you
Your charm delights me in everything you do

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किसी और से नहीं मैं ख़ुद से ख़फ़ा हूँ
क्यूकि..
ये जो मेरे हालात हैं इनकी वजह मैं ख़ुद हूँ

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