"Don't fall in love with me, I'll only avoid you" she warned
Alas! He did, and he never again saw her.

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She got so used to the darkness, she welcomed her demons... They became her peaceful place.

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We shouldn't be here
Magnet of the wrong draws us closer still
We shouldn't be friends
Silent smiles we exchange still
Shouldn't be known
The little secret we nurture in our hearts.

Little stares, glances and grazes
Here and there as we pass for a hint of your cologne,
My perfume to get a high of energy for the day.
Ecstasy, lust, desire.... Love
It leads like a ladder to the rooftop of our clash
That shouldn't be known but we'd rather die in our explosion than diffuse.

One last time,
we whisper in between our moments of intimacy
As we connect on the deepest ends... Soul and whole.
It's led to millions of times though that we'd agree were not regrettable.
For I'd rather have it with you in the shadows till the end.

So let's keep having last times... As we seek courage
To face those eyes of disbelief and hate
Hopefully our last time
Shall be a goodbye to secrecy
Not an eternal farewell.

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She was dying... They knew
Soon she'd only be but dust
Given to the soil and she'll fade away into nothing
But distant memories over time.

She was dying... They were sad
She was sad also
So they made her do things she wished to do
She saw the places she'd always dreamt to see
Wore what she always admired and wished she had.

She was dying... So to ease the burden of the unknown of the next moment,
they gave her the world in her last moments
The most beautiful sights the world could behold
But she was dying, so why feed these beauty to dying eyes?

Alas! We realize... We're only cherished and loved when we prepare to say goodbye
For in our last days, the love and time, they realize it
And give it at its extreme.

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It was meant to be nice
A lovely conversation with no plans in mind.

Until you dropped the dice
A dice not with numbers but the one filled with lies.

I was meant to smile
But all I did was cry.

Once again another joined the line
A line of fools that lie just to get the high,
Of lust and lust till my heart they grind.

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"you're beautiful... I love you... I won't leave you... I'm yours... You own me... You complete me... You make me happy"

That's all I wish to hear... And more
From you everyday
As you accompany then with actions.

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When I fume beyond extreme,
And I imagine steams escape my ear and eyes
So swelling is this anger and rage that encompasses me
Deeper into an imagination I've never dared to share.
For there in the wonders and freedom of my mind,
I imagine you, the instigator of my anger
Under my mercy
As I grab the nearest blade or needle, as long as it pierces through you
And I jab and stab as much I want
As bad as I can.
Then I feel relieved
For It escapes me, this anger I once welled in
For an image of you is in my head,
An image of the beauty of art that I created from your slit throat and the red blood that slowly crawls on the floor to my feet,
Making the anger dissipate as I feel fulfilled...
If only I could actually do it.

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It still lives in my head
It plays in my vision, messes with my mind
And calls to tears, threatening to drip drop
Like a fountain from my eye balls.
Like a movie, playing on and on with no ending scene is how I see it
So clear and vivid like yesterday's event
But this time not merry, this time it wasn't a happy one.
Only pleas and cries and screams were heard
While we sretched out our hands and begged like you're some god.
But you saw us not, you was blinded by your rage
Your blind rage that always drove you to the brink of destruction when you deemed it so
For you knew... No one could question or stop you.
A mighty lord, was how you felt.

If only you knew, how slowly you killed our hearts and souls
Till we starred at you with dead eyes
While you sparked nothing from us...
Nothing except fear.

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Don't fret
It's okay to not be okay
In the end, it'll all work out...
So don't rush, you're not weird
Or wired in a way.

Don't fret
Ignore the eyes for they know you not
They judge what they see and mock what they know nothing about
They ruin souls but believe it's fun
For deep in them, they're ruined but pride rules them.

Do not fret!
Think you're a flower
Still growing, yet to bloom
For when you do, your beauty shall blind eyes that speak hate
And bind lips that frown at oneself...
For they see it, they see it too
Potential and strength and beauty so bright they shiver in jealousy.

So don't fret love,
For it's really okay to not be okay
In the end, it all turns to tales....
Or maybe not.

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EUPHORIA
In a state of euphoria, I saw you
Your eyes dark like coal,
They were clouded with want.
We conversed but not with words
Muscles rippled as cotton shredded with a deafening sound.

In a state of euphoria, I felt you
Arms like cannons,
They held and took me to heights I never dreamt I'd reach.
Eyes locked and breaths mixed
With sweat sleek like honey, our flesh sparked and ignited flames
as old as time.

In the state of euphoria I was awakened
To reality so disappointing,
A lamp half dead waiting to be killed sat by me.
Slaughtering was the ache in me
To remember once again
The image of dead wide eyes starring at me.

Eyes belonging to you
Eyes belonging to a head far from your whole
The head I severed
With blood dripping like raindrops from my finger tips
Even though I loved you...
In a state of euphoria, I killed you.

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