ISOLATION

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Is it truly the real me?
All settled and in Love
Completely fixed on One

Or Was that the true me?
Unsettled and Free
Drifting alone with many

All the steps I took
All the journey I travelled
Might just be worth it

Finally after so long
After so many tries
I finally found her

Though I'm restricted
Fixed on only One
I find myself at peace
Knowing, It's my heart
that Restricts Me

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I know We aren't meant to be
Yet I allow myself to love you
To achieve something so distant

I know I must stop myself now
from falling deeper for you
Yet I'm afraid of taking the step

I'm afraid I'll end up hurting you
I'm afraid I'll loose you then
I'm afraid I'll lose what isn't even mine

There's so much I wanna say
There's so much I wanna complain
There's so much I gotta hide

I'm afraid I'll have to hide
Keep my thoughts to me
Hidden far far from you

Cause Now I know I love you
And I can't be a hindrance
to your path to the shining glory
while I rot deep in the darkness

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Never had I ever-
meant us to be forever.
Never had I ever-
meant us to be lovers.

Never had I thought-
to have my heart caught.
Never had I thought-
to have my love bought.

Never did I wish-
to enjoy love's bliss.
Never did I wish-
For that unexpected Kiss.

Yet now I hope,
for our future's scope.
For a beautiful journey,
Not always sunny, yet funny.

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How I wish
I could meet you soon
How I wish
I could fly to you

How I wish
The months pass away
How I wish
I could hold you near

How I wish
You were by my side
How I wish
To lay my eyes on you

How I wish
4.5 months had been 4.5 years
How I wish
6 months become 6 minutes

How I wish
I could stand by your side
How I wish
I could lay bare my heart

How wish
I could tell you
How much I love you
How much I miss you

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How I wish
I could have you
as someone more than a friend

How I wish
I could hold your hand
in ways more than a friend

How I wish
I could stay beside you
a relation more than a friend

How I wish
I could call you mine
in ways more than a friend

How I wish
You would look at me
as someone more than a friend

How I wish
My wishes do come true

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I wish we meet,
together on a street.
Not by our own plan,
but by fate's chance.

May our eyes meet,
Across the wide street.
I wish our heart meet,
Before our eyes hit.

I know it's a fantasy,
It's a beautiful dream,
Yet I wish it comes true-
Just the way, I have you.

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Not the defeat, but the way-
You got defeated
Determines your status-
A Winner or A Loser

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I wish, I were never born
To a family, full of storm
There's one prayer, I only wish
To be granted Death, A final bliss

I am wrong, so they say
I was made wrong, point I lay
My choices to be never followed
Yet bad results, to be swallowed

Now Blame's all upon me
For I'm the puppet, you see
Destined to walk a fixed path
Upon Path, to be broken apart

Tired of the second options
Now I choose a final second
My choice is a final bliss
To be granted an Eternal Sleep.

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Baby we fell in love
It was fate's shove
We got together
Such a huge bother

Never did I realise
We might capsize
Like all predecessor
We became successor

To the list of failure
Towards we got lure
Made an incomplete story
Which also we now bury

In our lost pilgrimage
We started with confidence
Even after a fresh start
I've become "Broken Heart"

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