Staring at the darkness so elegant infront,
I start to brush my thoughts...

to the bitter truths,
the world has put forward...
to the unforgivable sins,
I became the reason for....
to the stabbing nightmares,
keeping me awake for many starry skies....
to the beautiful memories,
killing me second by second...
to the endless hopes of homecoming,
tearing the pockets of those ripped jeans...

I stop...
And I now wish
to weave into this darkness I see...
to blend into this uncertainty of life I see...

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Staring at the stars,
Watching the clouds sway
in a motion unknown,
waiting for the sunrise...

i hope.

I hope the world will have less scary stories to tell me today...
I hope people fighting everyday will have atleast an easy war to face today....
I hope to be with my peeps when life tries to push me down hard today...
I hope the darkness will pass and the sun shines bright today...
Just like the cloudy sky that moved slowly just to show me a sky filled with stars under its blanket,
I hope to sway away from my loved ones for a period, and
may be they could see the stars this time and I could see their lost smile...

i hope.

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Darkness

A place where you feel at home, a home of solitude in this world's wraths and hypocrisies....

A space where you will get lost in your own shadows and still find peace sitting besides you, holding you tight...

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Hey Maie,
You see that,
A river flowing...
Taking all the leftovers of the world...
With the most uncertain rocks,
Diverting the directions,
Clearing the exceptions,
Only to meet life's failures and cries...

That is a river no-one has ever loved...
Loved by some though,
For whom success never mattered...
The river always has been an epitome of beauty...
a result of fights and wars...
an outcome of greeds, jealousies and egos...
a product of man's hatred...
That is a river no-one has ever loved...
That is the river of vengeance and blood...

maie...
Shall i gift you something?
A sweater maybe...
a red sweater woven out of the river,
the river thats flowing out of you....?
Open your eyes Maie...
Look at me...
Here, let me weave a sweater,
a red sweater,
one last time..

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I am awake...
I am breathing...
I am alive...

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Aaj bohut dinon Baad,
dhundne Nikal Raha Hun....
Uss halki si mazboot dor Ki talaash mein...
Vo dor, Jisne hum dono Ko Joda hai...
Jisne hum dono Ko tutne se jo roka hai...

Kisi banjaare se Kam nahi hai hum bhi...
Ek ansuni Raah ki talaash mein jo hum nikalte hai..
Najaane kitne khwaab hum chhod dete hai...
Ek Manzil se dusri ki aur...
Bas ek ummeed hi toh Hoti hai...
Jo Hume inn raaston mein saath deti hai...
Jo Hume chalte rehne Ko sikhaati hai...
Jo Hume kuch naye khwaab dikhaate hai...

Ek toota hua aaaina sa mera kal tha...
Uss bikhre hue aaine ki har ek sheesha
Meri har ek sacchi jhoot se mujhe vaakif kara raha tha...
guzar gaya tha...
ussi mein hi khush tha...
badal Gaya tha...
ussi mein hi shaant tha ..

Bas aur kya...
Aaj mein yahi soch mein rehta hun ki ..
Aaj vo ummeed reh jaaye...
Aaj vo dor mil jaaye...
Aaj mein aane vaale uss kal se Jud jaun...
aur mein yeh keh Sakun ki
Shaayad
Shaayad, aaj sab thik hojaaye...

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Close your eyes, and
think of the first rain drop
on a deserted land...
Or wait,
think of the last time
you slept like
there was no tomorrow.
Or
think about the
Dearest page
Of your daily journal.

Now,
open your eyes,
and Listen to me Maie,
You are as precious
as that first drop,
Your presence soothens
me exactly like
that calm sleep you had
and
these days,
all the pages of my diary
are my favourite ones.....

But still,
I can't answer you,
Still, I do not know
Why I fell for you?
Why you matter to me
so much?

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Aaj tum khaana khaalena...
Aaj tum paani peelena...
Aaj tum dard mitaalena...
Aaj tum pyaar jataadena...
Aaj tum ghamand dikhaadena...
Aaj tum badla lelena...
Aaj tum paisa kamaalena...
Aaj tum mashhoor hojaana...
Aaj tum jee chaahe daudlena...

Aaj tum chaaon mein rehlena...
Aaj tum saans lelena...
Aaj tum ek accha Insaan banjaana...

Kyu ki
Kal, agar hum nahi rahe toh
Aaj tumhe Maut ka khat padna pad jaayega...

- ek jalta hua jungle....

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Hey Maie !!
You crying?
Stop crying for heaven's sake,
Stop sobbing for other's mistakes.
Life has always been as sticky as a clay,
But it's never been an easy game to play.
Levels, fluctuating,
Maps, increasing,
Characters, decreasing,
Even it becomes stressful
to breathe at times.

A summit can be seen,
from a long distance away,
Still, to reach the summit,
It's always a path not that paved, Maie.

Even a pretty little butterfly
comes out of its cocoon,
weeping, tearing, wailing
but it does come out,
With all its elegance gleaming.

Maie, You see those fireflies,
They don't stop shining
even in bright daylight,
It's just that
They keep on shining
to raise the grace
of some long and dark nights.
Similarly,
even in the darkest of the hour or
when the last ray of sun starts setting,
you will shine bright with all its might
like some never ending charm of a
flawless firefly.

So, now, stop crying Maie.
It's been a long dark night.
Come, let's get over with it.
Come, let's watch the sunrise together....

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Aankhen toh Dekhe hai hazaaron Mene
Lekin nazre toh bas aapke hi saamne jhuke hai...

Ishq Mohabbat pyaar, chaahe ye jahaan jo bhi Naam de,
Uss dhalta hua Sooraj ka khayaal bhi toh bas uss Anjaan sa chaand ne hi Rakha hai...

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