I knew it wasn't right
When you walked into my life
I saw the signs but I was blind
I let the chais consume me
We were toxic together, it wasn't healthy
We had moments of laughter and bliss
The hurt always followed and we were left bleeding
We were poison to each other
We danced around each other, tried to make it work
It was a losing game
We were always gonna hurt and we were both to blame
We fed off each other's pain
Just addicted to this sick game of push and shove
Tried to walk away but we always came back
We know we have to leave
But it's easier said than done
The pain we feel is real
Our casual relation was a timebomb
And we knew it all along

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We fought and burt each other&s heart
Tearing ourselves apart
But some how we still couldn't let go
Blinder by own fking ego
We held onto each other so tight
Even we knew it wasn't right
We were addicted to the pain
Our situation was a toxic game
How did we ever fall so far
When we both were just 2 souls
Tryna fina a spark in the dark

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I hate the way we hurt each other
But we can't seem to let each other go
We are toxic but still want the other
Even though we both know it ain't right
Our fights are like fireworks
A dangerous thing that hurts
Our words sharp as knives
We both know we 're living lies
We are poison but can't seem to avoid it
Even though it kills
Will still hold onto the memories

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7 months down the line
And I'm still not sure what we were
We were a toxic boy and a toxic girl
Tryna make it work in this dysfunctional world
The fights, the drama , it never stopped
We played with fire and got burnt
Tried to heal but only worsened the hurt
We were a ticking timebomb
It blew up, left us feeling numb
We kept on trying
Ignoring all the hurt and lying
We held onto what was wrong
Till it shattered us into a million pieces
We 'll learn from our mistakes and groe
From this sad 7 month casual relationship shitshow

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We were like fire and gasoline
We know that its not healthy
We were toxic but we couldn't seem to let go
We were both in too deep
We fight like there is no tomorrow
Words cut like a knife
But we kiss and make up
It's breaking us down
But we can't seem to let go
We know we should end this
But we keep coming back for more
2 broken souls
Trying to find a way out
But for now, we'll just keep living in our toxic bubble

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Toxic boy and toxic girl
What an odd pair clinging together in this toxic world
One wild , the other shy
Never in harmony, just side by side
Eyes full of dread, both fell into the abyss
Endless turbulence
Games of deceit, sweet and poisonous fling
Eventually toxic boy did fall away,
While toxic girl left all alone to stay
Neither the boy nor girl to save
Forever stuck in a toxic wave
Pain followed, aches growing more and more
Too broken to hope
The memories remain , toxic till they die

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I cried typing those paragraphs and you left me on seen

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Take me back to the days where I could sleep peacefully without overthinking
I'm so tired

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I got new tattoos on my wrist
Fucking me up is what you do
It's nothing new

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Always thinking about you
I still look at pictures whenever I miss you even when you don't
I sort of wish we could meet again for the first time

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