Sometimes you jump in
With both feet
And before you know it
You are in too deep

When you are hungry
You are vulnerable
So much, that just being fed
May render you stable

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Things I'd Like to Forget

How many times my heart has cried out in loneliness and despair
The forced smiles through tears stretching across my cheeks
So much so that they have now formed dips and valleys on my face
And my eyes pour fountains of salty memories
Feeling emptiness despite being so full
Of things like artificial light, artifacts and turmoil
Happiness collecting dust
The nights I cried with you by my side and the sleepless nights in the other room choking on tears of resentment
Overcome with tragedy
Waking up to not agains and I don't want to's
And feeling everything
Then nothing
Like quicksand sucking me in when I greet the day
And shuddering every step of the way

These are the things I would like to forget

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Maybe you could burn my lips
A little deeper
And I could kiss you into hell
And you could choke
On fluids
That puts love to shame

Or maybe I could just fuck off
Like you ordered me to
Each time you murdered me
mindlessly

Little girl with void stars in her eyes
She didn't want to matter
She just wanted you to kiss her
And tell her she was yours

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I am underwater
Pouring out ideas
Painting pictures of someday and tomorrow
Yet I still find myself drowning in yesterday's sorrow

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I want to be his paradise
One more time
But his kiss left me
Like a seismic wave
Withdrawing into the horizon
After reconstructing the shore

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He fucked me with his eyes
Undressing my vulnerability
Peeling back every layer
Of existence

Warm breath, cooled by chilly air
And those passionate kisses
I could never forget this feeling

Somehow he crept in
Charming
And those sad eyes engulfed me
Slowly at first
Then all at once
The way Summer is born from Spring

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Silhouettes entertain
In passerby fashion
And I am like a hermit crab
Who's lifting his shell
For peeks of possibility
Tread carefully, hermit
For the world outside you
Is a shallow existence

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In isolation I have found
Empty hallways ache
Open doors to dungeons
Concealing mistakes
Where the wind blows in
A shivered window view
And calls drift in and echo
Gracing fleshy dew

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Neon trees
Oceans collapsing
Salty hair and
Sandy bottoms

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Daytrip to Atlantis

I want to drive to the edge
Of these dark clouds
Let the wind carry me
To sunshine kisses
And sing along to every melody
That the radio finds on seek

I want to find blue skies
And summer's fireflies
I want to paint
polluted skeletal remains
Clearing the view
Of such heavily polluted minds

I want to swim along the shore
My body apprehended by the tide
Follow sunsets to lost islands
Surrounding myself with oceanside
Make crowns of coral reef
Salty hair flowing like seaweed
While the waves draw sandy seascapes
And borders collapse on to the floor

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